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God is Awesome: Kurtis (with pics)

Thursday, May 24, 2018

This is an entry I wrote for my God is Awesome journal, but I also wanted to share it here. Since I can't sleep, I figure now is as good a time as any to type it into a blog.

My older brother, Kurtis, passed away on May 7th, 2018 at the age of 33. On earth, Kurtis was limited in his physical abilities. He was born with Spina Bifida and had to use a wheelchair all his life, but that never stopped him from doing amazing things. He rode a hand-pedaled bike, played wheelchair sports, ran his own volunteering business, used a jack-hammer on Grandpa's driveway, and loved working on cars with Dad and Grandpa. When he was young, he was a thrill-seeker. he rode all the crazy rides at Lagoon (our local amusement park), including the Sky Coaster, an insane ride that hoists you high in the air then releases you to fly/swing overhead! He did this more than once, and it terrified me every time! He wanted to drive a race car so he contacted Rocky Mountain Raceways to see if anyone made race cars with hand controls. He didn't get to drive a race car, but one of the drivers took him for a ride, going over 200MPH!

Kurtis loved his life up to the very end despite all the challenges he faced. Since he was unable to grow taller, his organs ran out of room. His heart was enlarged and his lungs compromised from being smashed by his other organs. He was on oxygen his entire adult life. It started as only at night, but for the last three years of his life, he was on oxygen 24/7 and on a ventilator at night. Towards the end, his CO2 levels began to rise since his lungs couldn't release it as they should have. I don't want to focus on his death so I'm not going to describe it here. In fact, I only mention his struggles to explain why I'm at peace with his death. I thank God for the hope of heaven. I know that Kurtis is there running around and breathing heavenly air without any struggle.

I wonder if heaven has race cars. If it does, I can guarantee Kurtis is driving one! I thank God for every one of the thirty-two years I was able to spend with him here and I can't wait to spend an eternity with him there.

Another God is Awesome thing: Kurtis' last week on this earth was spent enjoying a staycation with me.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I missed this blog until tonight after reading your most recent one. I hope you are finding your new normal.

    1054 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. Keep the memories in your heart. He is pain free and in a perfect body now with his Heavenly Father. It is hard to lose any part of your family. But the happy memories will keep him alive in your heart.
    1118 days ago
    what a great sister you are!! Thanks for sharing
    1118 days ago
    HI Melissa
    Your brother sounds like he lived fully and his smile speaks a thousand words! You have written a lovely tribute full of grace and love and I am sure he is smiling at you...or waving as he speeds by in the race car! Wishing you peace as your cherish your memories and the fact that he is now sailing along holding you up!
    1119 days ago
    What a lovely tribute to your brother. He looks GREAT in his picture......I bet he had a great sense of humor. You will certainly miss him and so will you mom, family and friends. I hope that you will keep his memory alive with many stories and memories. Kurtis is at PEACE, driving race cars, hiking mountains, and living large in heaven. God is good. God bless you!
    1119 days ago

    What an AWESOME tribute to your wonderful brother. Keep each memory close in your heart and he will always be with you. Know that he is now an angel with wings in heaven and he is smiling down upon you and your family.

    With much love to you my dear
    1119 days ago
    Your love for your brother shines through every word of this beautiful tribute. I can see that you are happy that he is free in heaven now although I'm sure you miss him terribly here on earth. You will have his memories in your heart until you see him again.
    1119 days ago
  • CAROL_31649731
    Melissa, what a fantastic tribute to your wonderful brother! Cherish those one can take those away from you, especially of your last vacation together. I imagine that was especially memorable for you. God Bless you. Love, Carol
    1120 days ago
  • CGPS1795
    Hi Melissa!

    I know and see that you do too, that while Kurtis has died in this life, he is in fact reborn into what I call Wider Life! Death only ends the ability to have physical touch with Kurtis, but not all the memories, the fun, the experiences shared, the RELATIONSHIP.

    May all that knowledge keep and comfort you and your whole family. The rest of us will hold you all in our thoughts, prayers and hearts! emoticon

    1120 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    Blessing to you and your family. Know he will always be in your heart.
    1120 days ago
  • CAT125
    God Is Good. emoticon Be wrapped in His love.

    1120 days ago

    This is a beautiful blog. You are right God is Awesome! Kurtis loved you so much and was so excited for the stay cation time. I can't even begin to tell you how many times he wanted me to reschedule the hotel and other things to an earlier date. I had to keep pointing out to him that the weather was Utah weather therefore if you did it any earlier it would be just awful. I know that he valued his time with you away from the house since you were part care taker when at home.

    Thank you for being that care giver helper the past 3 years? since Dad fell and things took a really crazy turn. You are a special angel here upon the earth as well.

    I am sure that Kurtis is up there saving you the best seat or foot stool ( so you can stand ) in heaven. He would only want you to have the very best. I can not wait for you to see the thing he had gotten you for your birthday before going on stay cation. . We all love Kurtis and will miss him deeply the house is not the same without him here anymore.

    Heavenly Father is so proud of how you both have come to earth with the bodies you have and have respected them well and have taken good care of them ( I am sure he can over look you climbing up 35 feet in the globe willow only to fall out ) and that you have both always thought of others and shown kindness to all those you have ran into through your many trials and triumphs.

    Take care of yourself and remember you will see each other again in eternity

    Love you so very much, emoticon

    1121 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/19/2019 10:01:29 PM
    Kurtis had such a beautiful smile! I love reading about him, and I know how much you and your mom loved him dearly. I'm sorry I never got the chance to meet him, but I know that he was a special man who lives on in the heart of you all. Big hugs and I hope the memories keep making you smile.
    1122 days ago
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