A Delicate Moment
Monday, May 21, 2018
Three days, now, I've maintained my weight below high school weight. Not high school physique, but high school weight. Don't have enough abdominal muscle tone to avoid something of a beer belly (what I have is a fat belly - no beer involved: what a loss). And it's clear I'm not as strong as I was 50 years ago.
But this is a delicate moment. It's taken many, many months of not particularly intense attention to diet and maintenance of modest exercise to get here, and I'd like to stay here. I realize that a few days of carefree eating will have me 15 pounds heavier no no time.
My sense is that a bit more care in watching intake will shrink that intake a little, and nudge me to weigh a little less - five pounds less might be good. My scale, on of those fancy things, says my body fat is 20.4%. BMI 23.4. I could make 20% body fat a goal, and forget about establishing a weight goal. I could also make some physical capability measures a goal - though I'm not sure what they'd be.
Most important right now, however, is not to throw away this progress. Pants are fitting nicely again, belts are easy to buckle. I'd be proud if anyone saw this progress - but I think it's marginal and most people think I'm pretty decently thin as it is. I won't get any credit for weighing five pounds less. But, of course, my purpose is my own, and external recognition is secondary, or maybe much further down the list.
OK - so a delicate time. I'll have to be wary of my own inclination to enjoy food as entertainment beyond nourishment. I do enjoy cooking and eating. And I'll have to up my exercise to intentional strength training - basically boring. Feels like a waste of time. But the years have been stealing muscle mass and I need it back, if for no other reason than to burn calories.
I wish I could be enthusiastic about this. I guess my ultimate goal here is to through-hike the Appalachian Trail, meaning having the strength to do so, and weighting as little as is compatible with that strength. If I can develop that image and keep it in mind, my goals might be more compelling.
As I said, a delicate time.