Things Are Changing I Can Feel It

Today was a better day. I managed to eat less. Not perfectly but less. So I take that as a win. However, when I weighed myself this morning I had gained a pound. I weigh 171 lbs. I am only 5'1. I have to wear size 2XL just to keep from clinging to my belly. I am embarrassed. It's weird because I don't feel that fat. Until I have to do some exercise and I am all out of breath. Or when I go shopping and I have to shop in the plus section. In my own distorted mind I am still that skinny girl that I used to be. I will probably never be her again. But maybe at least I can get down to 140-150. At least down enough that I can fit into my bell bottoms. That is all I am asking for. I think the topomax is starting to work. My appetite is decreasing. I went most of today only drinking a protein shake. I am hopeful that things are changing.