Frustration tempered by exercise
Thursday, May 17, 2018
I had moments of excess frustration today due to miscommunication between the doctor office and myself, and then my therapist appointment for tomorrow morning was canceled as well... and has yet to be rescheduled... at just the wrong time. I am stressed. Not sleeping well. Having issues with my appetite. And the worst for me was that I was so stressed that I was unable to read a book for about 5 days or more... which is totally unheard of for me. (I don’t own a TV, or anything so reading is my primary entertainment... and is also one of my coping skills). On a normal day I read a book or two, with time to do all the other things I do... like walking the Cooper-dog! He thinks that is my most important task on any given day!
To have my therapist appointment canceled indefinitely at this juncture is unfortunate and possibly dangerous for my mental state... but it is what it is... and I DO have coping skills I have learned over the years... and I DO have support from my family...
So, this morning after I staved off a crying jag and meltdown in the doctor office, I asked my niece (she drove me to this appointment) if we could go take a walk... she said there was a park nearby she wanted to check out as a possibility for walking her dog when she had to come up that way (it’s about an hour drive ... at interstate speeds... away). So we went and walked/hiked for an hour, then went to the mall and checked out a store that is going out of business for deals. Did a good job on that! Then we went to lunch... I go out to lunch maybe twice a month... maybe... it was nice to have a yummy meal... and someone else does the dishes!!!
But the part of that that eased my immediate frustration with the situation was the walking outdoors. We didn’t break any speed records, but we did reconnoiter some trails for her to hike with her dog. That and lunch (well, and the good company) were my silver lining for today. I have to make some uncomfortable phone calls tomorrow, but the rain is not supposed to start until after 9pm, so the Cooper-dog and I can put some miles in... if he’s up for it... he did play all morning today with his buddy Sweet Pea after all. I am headed to bed... I hope we all have a good night and a great day tomorrow