Well, my Spark went out completely not long after my last post. It's a lather-rinse-repeat cycle that rules my life. I get all hyped up and ready to JUST DO IT and then, something happens that completely kicks me off the road to good health. If I am honest with myself, nine times out ten, it's my husband. Yes, I said my husband. Let me explain:
He is needy. And by needy, I mean NEEEEDDDDYYYYYY...I truly feel like I have a toddler in the house at times when it comes to him. It sounds horrible, I know. But he is just...fragile? helpless? broken? I am truly not sure what the right word is here. Anyways...just when I am going good, on the right track, etc, etc,. he seems to have some sort of break down -- way down into the pit of depression he goes, and I have to "tend" to him. So hard to explain here, and not sure I really want to.
So between working, schooling, guiding my last kid through homeschooling, and tending to a fragile spouse -- I don't take care of ME. This is the most illogical thing in the universe of course, because if I don't take proper care of ME, how on earth am I gonna take proper care of them?
So this post is called "the big three"....why? I was sitting and enjoying my breakfast of cold eye round steak smothered in mayo and a bit of horseradish and thought to myself "damn, this is really good; I could eat this time and time again and it's so simple: meat & fat"....then I got to thinking that if I threw a bit of brussels sprouts or broccoli on my plate, I've got 3 simple ingredients, but a great meal: meat, fat, bit of veg...nothing more, nothing less.
Today is my birthday and today I will begin asking myself 3 questions before every meal: is it meat, is it fat, is it veggie...I know, know, it should have dawned on me a long time ago but hey, I'm a little dense.