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Thursday, May 17, 2018

Well, my Spark went out completely not long after my last post. It's a lather-rinse-repeat cycle that rules my life. I get all hyped up and ready to JUST DO IT and then, something happens that completely kicks me off the road to good health. If I am honest with myself, nine times out ten, it's my husband. Yes, I said my husband. Let me explain:

He is needy. And by needy, I mean NEEEEDDDDYYYYYY...I truly feel like I have a toddler in the house at times when it comes to him. It sounds horrible, I know. But he is just...fragile? helpless? broken? I am truly not sure what the right word is here. Anyways...just when I am going good, on the right track, etc, etc,. he seems to have some sort of break down -- way down into the pit of depression he goes, and I have to "tend" to him. So hard to explain here, and not sure I really want to.

So between working, schooling, guiding my last kid through homeschooling, and tending to a fragile spouse -- I don't take care of ME. This is the most illogical thing in the universe of course, because if I don't take proper care of ME, how on earth am I gonna take proper care of them?

So this post is called "the big three"....why? I was sitting and enjoying my breakfast of cold eye round steak smothered in mayo and a bit of horseradish and thought to myself "damn, this is really good; I could eat this time and time again and it's so simple: meat & fat"....then I got to thinking that if I threw a bit of brussels sprouts or broccoli on my plate, I've got 3 simple ingredients, but a great meal: meat, fat, bit of veg...nothing more, nothing less.

Today is my birthday and today I will begin asking myself 3 questions before every meal: is it meat, is it fat, is it veggie...I know, know, it should have dawned on me a long time ago but hey, I'm a little dense.

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  • SPICY23
    I can so relate: my DH has radar for the moment when I sit down with my cuppa, a book, or turn to my own project; suddenly he appears with all kinds of interruptions: tasks he wants help with, something to discuss, or plain old amorous expectations. Heavy sigh. Some days it seems darned disrespectful; other times I realize he is just obtuse and has no clue. Oh well.

    Wishing you fortitude to work your plan around these obstacles!

    Peace and Care
    213 days ago
    Oh, I so relate to your situation! I have a hubby who doesn't like to be apart from me and hates it when I work on my own hobbies - ALONE! Definitely needy. And he especially hates it when I try to take good care of myself.

    I don't have any suggestions to offer, but I do feel your pain.

    Hope your special day is happy!

    213 days ago
    Happy Birthday
    213 days ago
    Happy birthday! Yes, take good care of yourself and veggie on.
    213 days ago
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