There's Something Happening Here
Thursday, May 17, 2018
There is something happening. I am changing. I fell into a vat of acceptance in my life and just let the status quo be good enough. The status quo has been me barely getting around, walking with a cane most of the time, limiting where I go. Not saying yes to things because I do not know if there will be seating, or seating that can hold me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin, and I want to change that.
I am not living; I am just existing.
I need to be a part of the world I have been born into. I am a person that people generally enjoy being around. I am often funny, kind and generous - and none of these things are apparent when I give up and sit in the corner or in my office, because I am afraid to care, afraid to try something different, afraid to be who I really am because I might fail.
Not trying has made me fail. I realize that my journey to health is taking a lot of twists and turns. It is a long road, and I am not throwing in the towel. I let my circumstances overwhelm me and it may seem like I gave up - but the truth is, I was just on hiatus. - I am now re-evaluating who I want to be --- and give myself the chance to show my best self to the world. I am done with just existing. I owe it to myself to be the best version of me.
I am going to blog more, get an activity tracker, make intentional movement, be a more engaged human, and remember just how special I am and what a miracle my life is. This is my time to be all that i can, and in the way that I want to do it.
Cheers to us all for trying and being all that we can. Let's love ourselves a little more and get down to it.