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There's Something Happening Here

Thursday, May 17, 2018

There is something happening. I am changing. I fell into a vat of acceptance in my life and just let the status quo be good enough. The status quo has been me barely getting around, walking with a cane most of the time, limiting where I go. Not saying yes to things because I do not know if there will be seating, or seating that can hold me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin, and I want to change that.

I am not living; I am just existing.

I need to be a part of the world I have been born into. I am a person that people generally enjoy being around. I am often funny, kind and generous - and none of these things are apparent when I give up and sit in the corner or in my office, because I am afraid to care, afraid to try something different, afraid to be who I really am because I might fail.

Not trying has made me fail. I realize that my journey to health is taking a lot of twists and turns. It is a long road, and I am not throwing in the towel. I let my circumstances overwhelm me and it may seem like I gave up - but the truth is, I was just on hiatus. - I am now re-evaluating who I want to be --- and give myself the chance to show my best self to the world. I am done with just existing. I owe it to myself to be the best version of me.

I am going to blog more, get an activity tracker, make intentional movement, be a more engaged human, and remember just how special I am and what a miracle my life is. This is my time to be all that i can, and in the way that I want to do it.

Cheers to us all for trying and being all that we can. Let's love ourselves a little more and get down to it.
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  • 1965KAREN
    I love your honesty! This could have been something that I would write. I'm digging in too! Welcome back!!
    181 days ago
  • DOVESEYES
    Such great replies from people who know what each day is like. You inspire and give hope you always have :)
    Lots of hugs.
    185 days ago
  • SIMPLY_JAE
    Your story is similar to mine.. I am glad you are back..we can do this...one day at a time
    185 days ago
  • CASCOTT62
    I took the challenge when I learn about my heart problem. How will you meet the challenge?
    185 days ago
  • KITTYHAWK1949
    I am not living; I am just existing. That sound like me. I am so glad to hear that you are actively changing that. Here's to you and making changes to go out there and really LIVE!
    185 days ago
  • TNCOUNTRYLIFE
    I have been there so many times. Keep trying and you will start to see progress. I am in "Team 300+ Plus" and have found great support on the team thread "52 2018 Weigh In". Good luck on your journey.
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    185 days ago
  • QUIETWARRIOR
    I am so glad to see you back!
    The rawness of this blog touches my heart, and also speaks for me.
    I have done the same thing with my own life.
    I too am trying to rejoin the world, not waste this life I have been blessed with.
    Love you Mar!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    185 days ago
  • MAMADWARF
    Great to hear from you! I am still hanging in!
    185 days ago
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