I'm back *yet again* and I have to make this work!!
Thursday, May 17, 2018
I don't even know where to start... there have been some good things since last time I was on here but also many many bad things including a complete avalanche of newly discovered health issues.... included but not limited to :
- Type 2 diabetes
- Glaucoma in both eyes
- Bone spurs in both neck and lower back
- Carpal tunnel both wrists
- and more
The scariest was a diagnosis that I had received almost a year ago... is was confirmed that I have a very rare degenerative metabolic disease called M.E.L.A.S
(Mitochondrial encephalomyopathy, lactic acidosis, and stroke-like episodes)
This is a condition that has no cure and apparently had since I was born... it is degenerative with no cure... it attacks the brain, nervous system and muscles and is the underlying cause of many of my pre-existing health issues *including my weight and migraines etc* but also the new found conditions like the diabetes and my eyes. Although it was a very devastating diagnosis I must say I'm actually quite relieved by it because now I can put a name to the symptoms and explain why things are happening the way that they are.
With all this being said I found out that with this disease I have an exercise intolerance because of the lactic acidosis... but I'm going to try to not let this stop me from at the very least trying to do what I can to reach my weight loss goals in hope to extend what life I can salvage from all of the health issues and also hopefully improve my physical quality of life.
I'm kind of glad that this was unavoidable because now I can't beat myself up or blame myself for my conditions (contributing to the mental health issues I already have to cope with)but I can also deal with it accordingly and more effectively/appropriately to try to improve my overall health and quality of life.
I have to take this 1 day at a time and honestly hope for the best and give it all I can to make this work!!