Still a work in progress...
Saturday, May 12, 2018
Both myself and my apartment... lol. I have invested a good bit of time and effort into each project, and both are looking pretty good (if I do say so myself lol).., I addressed one of the remaining problem areas of clutter in the main living area yesterday afternoon. I had forgotten how ugly the chair under the pile of books and sweaters truly was... eewww! I uncovered it from the piles of stuff, and promptly draped it with a blanket. I think there was a reason I buried the chair in the first place... it is functional, but it is definitely NOT attractive! However, there are ways to make it more interesting and attractive. It was just the initial shock... lol! And then I spent some time online researching hair colors. I really liked it when I had fun colors in my hair last year and the year before. And I liked the more traditional color of merlot (like red wine with purple undertones). But red takes forever to grow out, and doesn’t strip out easily, so it’s best to actually grow it out rather than lift the color if possible. But I want to go back to midnight blues, and violets, and fuchsia and teal... in some combination... it makes me smile when I look in the mirror. My best friend, Jennifer, got hers done with a mix of moonstone and huckleberry I believe.., so a misty blue. I think it looks gorgeous on her! (And not at all like a steel blue like my grandma had). I thought about going with a misty color, but I really liked the vibrant colors that I had before... especially the ones that really “popped”!
Anyway... the scale moved the right way once again... so I am pleased with where I am with my weight right now... maintenance continues to feel like a precarious balancing act to me... and you add in my hypoglycemia and food becomes a bit of an anxiety trigger for me... more because of the hypoglycemia than anything, but every once in a while I wonder if I should eat something because it might lead me down the slippery slope back to where I started before SparkPeople at over 300 pounds. I do realize this is a rather irrational fear at this point, as I walk about 10x more now than I did then (more probably), and I doubt I could manage to eat the portion sizes I used to eat... but the niggling fear remains in the background. I try to let it be a more positive motivation to stay consistent and accountable to myself, but fears are not always going to be manipulated into the positive. Ah well... I do my best with what I have, and I have done pretty well overall... I am not going to beat myself up for occasional irrational anxiety... especially when it’s triggered by a very real medical condition.
Gee, I just gave myself a pep talk... and took y’all along for the ride... lol!
I haven’t decided on the hair color yet... any input?