How to go on with missing pieces?
A part of me forever gone...
There are now tears and darkness
Where once the warming sun had shone.
I miss you, mom, so very much,
There was so much more to do & share;
I wish I had a bit more time
To say how much I really care.
You've been part of me my whole life,
Through good times and the bad times, too -
At times it was just the two of us
As we both lived and grew.
I feel like I am orphaned now,
It is just me, here alone -
My brother there to greet you, mom
On the day God called you home.
Now you have no more struggles
To breathe and move and just to be;
No stress, no pain, no problems
Just the joy of being free!
I try to focus just on that,
How all there is now is peace and love;
How nothing hurts you anymore
As you lightly soar among the doves...
But - I'm still here without you,
Wondering how everyone else keeps strong.
I know it must be possible
But it feels, somehow, very wrong.
"Day by day", they tell me
And, "The first year is the worst" -
All those anniversaries;
My heart feels like it will burst.
My mom, my friend, my mentor
We've clashed and loved and cried;
You were so important in my life
I wish that you hadn't died...
Missing you, my sweet and smart and beautiful mom!!