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Update on this and that...

Monday, May 07, 2018

1. The fire... one firefighter was taken by ambulance to the hospital with non life threatening injuries, but thankfully there were no fatalities, and no other injuries serious enough to require transportation to the ER. The church is, understandably, closed for a time. The fire was primarily contained to the clock tower (though water damage was not), but the church building is historically significant in the town, with ties to the Women’s Christian Temperance Union, the start of the Grange movement in the US, and ties to the Underground Railroad... as well as currently housing one of the largest and most active congregations in the area. I have no doubt they will renovate/rebuild. For now they are holding in services in the old church building they put on the market in 2015( but have been unable to sell) when they bought the big, historic church in the center of town. 2. It seems the Cooper-dog had a touch of abdominal discomfort on Saturday, but mostly he was sulking because his wrestling buddy Sweet Pea left for the day... and so did his hu-mom... leaving him at grandpas without much entertainment or concierge services. He was sandbagging! As soon as Sweet Pea got home he “miraculously “ recovered. Silly puppy! Worried his hu-mom for pretty much no reason. And he did... I had never seen him look quite so miserable without an immediately discernible cause. Scared the bejabbers out of me to be honest. 3. As for my living situation? No changes there as yet. Hopefully this week I can explore my options. I think it says something that my stomach ache disappeared when I left the building and I haven’t had even a shadow of a migraine. The toxic mental and emotional atmosphere there (the tension with management especially ) I think is making me feel literally ill. So, yeah, time to explore my options. I may find that my current situation is the best option (it is hard to imagine)... but I have heard positive things about other buildings and conplexes, so... 4. I see the endocrinologist on Wednesday... and I am not sure what she is going to say. I felt a little like I was bothering her the last time I called her when my sugar was low, so I just stopped calling her no matter what my number was... it wasn’t really her... it was her diabetes care coordinator... but still. I am very sensitive about feeling like a “burden” to anyone for any reason. If I perceive an attitude that I am being one, I will remove myself from being one, before I get hurt or anything. I realize that has a lot to do with my own perceptions and that may have little to do with reality, but the fear is real, and I have been burned in the past by people who give no warning that think I am a burden on their time or energy... until they turn on me and savage me. Not pleasant. And finally... Spring is finally, truly, and completely settled into the area... flowers are blooming! Something cheerful to end this mostly depressing blog... lol
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    Oof, so much empathy for the excruciating feeling of suspecting we are burdensome!

    Wishing you miraculous ease with finding a sense of sanctuary.

    193 days ago
    It’s one thing when people call for imaginary compliments, but you are reporting legitmate blood sugars. You are not a burden!

    Glad Cooper is better. I got home tonight & grumpy Spartacus went out & started eating grass. Sure enough, he didn’t eat dinner. I’ll see if he lets me give him a belly rub to move things on tonight.
    193 days ago
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    I’m glad Cooper is okay. I pray that your living situation works out for the best for YOU. And please never consider yourself a burden, especially to those people whose job it is to care for you or who love you. Have a wonderful day! emoticon
    193 days ago
    Never consider yourself a burden - emoticon
    193 days ago
    You are never a burden!!!!You are often in my thoughts and I worry how things are going for you so I did not find your blog depressing but an answer to
    193 days ago
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