Trying to let go of ego without killing my job evaluations
Friday, April 27, 2018
I like to help people meet their goals. I don't have enormous ambitions or any real desire for promotions, so to me it isn't a big deal to let other people step up and push themselves, or be given credit for something that was a joint effort (another person and me) because I know that it looks good on their evals and gets them where they want to be. I am the manager of a team but I see myself as a team member equal to every other team member...i take turns doing the scut work to allow others a chance to do more data and reports or work on special projects instead of cleaning and maintenance. When someone who reports to me has a good idea or works really hard on something, I publicly and privately give that person credit; if they screw up, I address it in private as needed and publicly accept responsibility if it is called out in a public setting (if not I just don't bring it up to anyone not directly affected). I don't see this as anything other than me doing my job, being a "leader" by doing what it takes to make my team, our team, function the best it can.
My issue is that MY superiors then look at that as ALL the other person, not considering that for them to have time to accomplish their goals, I took on the routine work that makes our team function. They see the other people on my team as "rock star" and "really really smart and promising"...not that i facilitated the rockstar opportunities (including fighting to hire this employee when no one else wanted to), or did a good job training the super fabulous new employee. (Because of course.) On one hand, I don't care. As i said, i am very non ambitious. But on the other hand I get real sick of hearing how everyone but me is awesome and having to sit there and just take it.