Good morning to my friends ... old and new.. that stop by for a visit .. WELCOME !!!! You know the drill .. I supply the snacks, and you enjoy them to your hearts content .. remember .. magic home -- no fat, no carbs, and no calories .. and all of the flavor and taste you can imagine !!! I made up coffee, hot cocoa, and hot tea .. all of which can be chilled if you prefer !! :) Help yourself and welcome !! :)
Anyone game !!!!??? May as well make the best of a bad situation .
Yesterday my well-being mood was off kilter, but I was in a good mood .. (getting good at faking it in front of others) ..
but I had the proverbial meltdown in the morning when I was getting myself ready ... thanks to a good friend on here .. she brought be back off the edge yesterday afternoon .. lol lol and gave me suggestions that my 'poor me" had really forgotten, and/or didn't know .. Yup -- there ARE a few things that I don't know .. lol lol lol ..
My scale was up uncomfortably high, I tried to put on a 3x tank top with a yellow hoodie pullover .. and it just wasn't sitting right for as much as I was trying .. and I looked in the mirror and called myself "a fat pig" .. Now .. you know that that is not me .. I preach not talking down to yourself !!! but yesterday morning I was at an altimate low .. I was hurting from my unsupportive shoes the day before, and I was swollen, I was holding onto water galor .. and I just felt like a LUMP !!!! a bump on a lump .. I was about as low as I could get .. I sat down on the bed and just had a good solid cry ..
I figured the only way to get past this would be to get to the gym during lunch .. that always gives me good happy feelings .. feelings of accomplishment .. I went to the gym at lunch, and did 20 minutes of the cardio setting .. heartrate at 133 with 2.7 speed .. and then 5 minute cooldown ..and I felt much better .. I had worked out the rickets .. but that feeling of "LUMP" was still there ..
I stopped and picked myself up some baby carrots, and some fruit for snacking for today and tomorrow .. about mid morning, I get a case of the snackies. . and because I'm now unprepared .. I scrounge ..and that's never a good thing .. now I have some stuff to munch on .. I also brought back to the office a big plastic glass that I could get big glasses of water .. The only water I drink around there, is over on the office side .. that gives me a bigger glass of water to drink .. I think that has been part of my problem .. because I've been too lazy to walk over to the office side of the office every 15 - 30 minutes to refill my solo cup of water .. I brought all of my big glasses home .. So now I have a big glass for water, and so I have no excuse there .. I filled it up 3 times yesterday .. and yes .. drank it all .. lol lol .. it's a 36 ounce cup .. So -- I'm trying .. but it's taking some time to get my head back to where it's supposed to be ..
My friend in the afternoon pulled me back from the edge, with some good suggestions .. I just have not been feeling the best since my colonoscopy, and figured that it was because I was so cleaned out, that it was taking some time to build up again, I have been having cramping, and just light IBS syndrome .. irritating but not life stopping .. .. I never thought about it, but she suggested that I eat some more yogurt, and take my probiotic tablets as well .. I started last night, and took my suppliments .. I'm going to start eating a yogurt with my breakfast in the morning .. and see if I can't get rid of that YUCK BLACH feeling in my belly .. It kind of feels like period cramps .. so it's not bad .. just blaahhh feeling ..
Thanks to my friend !!!! You know who you are !!!!!!
The rest of my day was a good one .. with other things going on .. I'm thankful for that !!!!
This morning .. just curbing in the few little things that I did yesterday .. I still have that cramping, but my scale went back down 1 pound plus a smidgeon .. but my "self mood" is much better this morning .. Like I said .. I don't condone self loathing, but I was there yesterday .. it does happen .. I just was not comfortable in my skin yesterday .. and there was nothing I could do ..
I'm looking forward to a good day .. We've been watching a little red squirrel out by our bird feeder and he scoots under the snow .. and was totally surprised .. the blackbirds were there eating, and they were in the pocket under the feeder that he had made .. he scooted under the snow, and literally attacked the birds .. He got one .. thankfully everyone took off, with just the loss of a few feathers .. but I never would have expected that .. I had seen him jump at a morning dove .. but didn't get that one ..
So -- that's my day .. I'm back from my "lump" day .. and have my head back on again ..
Off to have my yogurt for breakfast .. :) We'll talk again later ..
Have a wonderful day .. Even though it's not what it should look like on April 19th .. it IS pretty ..