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50 days till 50

Wednesday, April 18, 2018


My weight has been steadily increasing over the last few years. Well, more like 7 years. I first start noticing it when I wes 43. Gone were the days of guilt free eating, where I could seemingly scarf down as much as I wanted, consequence free. My normal weight was always around 148. The other day I stepped on the scale and noticed I'm only a few pounds from 200. I remember I used to ask whoever I was dating, back in the day, would you still love me if I was 200 pounds? Ewww, but you'll never be 200 pounds!, they'd say jokingly. Well, in 4 pounds I will be. But along with nothing fitting, and knowing I don't look my best (and not to mention I don't even have the ABILITY, let alone the stamina to suck my stomach in when need be), I am also noticing a lot of back aches, shortness of breath with minimal exertion, low stamina with my 13 year old daughter, sore feet, and a decreasing desire to go places because I just feel bloated. In 50 days I will be 50. If I don't do this now, I never will. Having had an addictive personality all my life, I have conquered many bad demons with God's help. It is time for me to conquer my eating. So, today I am starting a new journey. A new relationship with food, if u will. My dad died at 66 from complications of diabetes. I literally watched him eat himself to death. I refuse to let my daughter see me just give up. I won't go down without a fight. So, day 1. Here I go. For my daughter, yes. But also for me....
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  • no profile photo CD22994956
    One day at a time is an all utility tool that fits whatever thing we try to “fill ourselves up” with. Small steps in a different direction will add up here too. Crawl first/ baby steps next/ full stride after. I believe in transformation!
    1101 days ago
  • BEELIEVE40
    50 is just a number, you look great but its smart to be looking further than just the scale, you want to be and feel healthy. I get that. Me too! Have to start somewhere right? Before you know it life passes by and you are in a spot you never imagined. Addictive personality and all you can do this. Before you know it you will eventually find working out ( whatever you decide to do exciting and you look forward to it and then one day you realize I am addicted to working out? WHAAAT?) true story. You will get there. Everyone starts at day 1. Great job! Keep it up. emoticon
    1114 days ago
  • JUSTSTICKWITHIT
    Nice, you have got this
    1114 days ago
  • JOCELYNH711
    You have made the first step by doing something about it ! Stay strong and positive and you can accomplish anything !
    1114 days ago
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