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50 days till 50

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

My weight has been steadily increasing over the last few years. Well, more like 7 years. I first start noticing it when I wes 43. Gone were the days of guilt free eating, where I could seemingly scarf down as much as I wanted, consequence free. My normal weight was always around 148. The other day I stepped on the scale and noticed I'm only a few pounds from 200. I remember I used to ask whoever I was dating, back in the day, would you still love me if I was 200 pounds? Ewww, but you'll never be 200 pounds!, they'd say jokingly. Well, in 4 pounds I will be. But along with nothing fitting, and knowing I don't look my best (and not to mention I don't even have the ABILITY, let alone the stamina to suck my stomach in when need be), I am also noticing a lot of back aches, shortness of breath with minimal exertion, low stamina with my 13 year old daughter, sore feet, and a decreasing desire to go places because I just feel bloated. In 50 days I will be 50. If I don't do this now, I never will. Having had an addictive personality all my life, I have conquered many bad demons with God's help. It is time for me to conquer my eating. So, today I am starting a new journey. A new relationship with food, if u will. My dad died at 66 from complications of diabetes. I literally watched him eat himself to death. I refuse to let my daughter see me just give up. I won't go down without a fight. So, day 1. Here I go. For my daughter, yes. But also for me....
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    One day at a time is an all utility tool that fits whatever thing we try to “fill ourselves up” with. Small steps in a different direction will add up here too. Crawl first/ baby steps next/ full stride after. I believe in transformation!
    1101 days ago
    50 is just a number, you look great but its smart to be looking further than just the scale, you want to be and feel healthy. I get that. Me too! Have to start somewhere right? Before you know it life passes by and you are in a spot you never imagined. Addictive personality and all you can do this. Before you know it you will eventually find working out ( whatever you decide to do exciting and you look forward to it and then one day you realize I am addicted to working out? WHAAAT?) true story. You will get there. Everyone starts at day 1. Great job! Keep it up. emoticon
    1114 days ago
    Nice, you have got this
    1114 days ago
    You have made the first step by doing something about it ! Stay strong and positive and you can accomplish anything !
    1114 days ago
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