Day 2 - Why Am I Eating So Much?!

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Recap of Yesterday:

I fought all day to stay focused and finish my checklist for the day. For the most part, I succeeded. At the gym, I ran/walked a VERY slow 2+ miles. Two weeks off is NOT good for training and fighting off the rest of this sinus infection doesn't help at all. One thing I did notice was that I felt hungry ALL DAY. So much so that I started jotting down how often I was eating.

7am - a little sausage biscuit
9:30am - I was hungry again and ate the inside (basically the pepperoni) from a pepperoni roll that was leftover
11:30am - I wanted lunch - homemade chicken salad with 6 club crackers
1:30pm - I was hungry AGAIN and reached for a protein Kind bar
3:10pm - WTF body?! I ate my snack I intended for after the gym

And then after the gym, I wasn't hungry. HUH?! I drank a protein shake on my way home and didn't feel the need to eat until dinner time with my boys.

8:15pm - 1/2 of a homemade Cuban sandwich (plus a couple extra bites) and a few chips

Now the 10pm cookie raid was NOT on the list. I wasn't happy about it. Pretty sure that was leftover stress eating from this past week.

Part of me wants to be mad at myself. I used to be so much better at feeling fuller in between meals. I'm not hardcore training yet so I don't think that has anything to do with it. But it wasn't mindless stress eating. It was a conscious
"I feel hungry."
"Drink some water and see if it passes."
"It didn't pass."
"Maybe I need to eat something. I can't stop thinking about eating something."
"Well at least find something good to eat. Eat protein. Maybe that will help."
"See, good choice! Protein! Should hold you over for a bit."
2 Hours Later - "I'm hungry AGAIN?! WAAAAAHHH!!"

So, other than the cookies (UGH! Damn my kid for talking me into letting those in the house! *lol*), I can't really be MAD at myself. Well, I am. And I'm not. I'm trying to do that thing I said about forgiving myself. I'm telling myself to just listen to my body and see how this works out. I put my calories in MFP and it's not bad. Right on track really for calories, if not a little off with macros. I chalked it up to just having a hungry day. Today would be better, right?

I already ate at 6:45am and then again when I got to work at 8:15am. *sigh*

Breathe. Just hold on. Your body is telling you something. Listen. Learn. Don't lose hope and don't take it as a fault in yourself that your own body is asking for food.

Okay, focus on the positive.
I didn't want to workout. I did, but I didn't. I was nervous. I HATE running on a treadmill but I simply could NOT stomach another COLD run outside IN APRIL! (I literally drove home in a blustering snow MID-APRIL! No wonder my body is confused - Mother Nature herself is confused!) So, while I didn't want to work out, and I told myself I could just go home and run outside, I walked outside after work and recognized that I would say that, go home, and then chicken out. So I went to the gym.

And even though I felt heavy and weak and slow, I still did run/walk intervals and completed 2+ miles. I set a goal for 2-3 miles and I hit that goal. I stretched, and didn't feel too darn awful. A little twinge in my left hip (odd, it's usually my right), but still felt alright. Today I feel good - not too sore. So apparently the whole running game isn't shot. No going back to day 1, I'll just work from here and keep moving.

And, like I said, no mindless snacking (even those cookies...damn those cookies...I thought about first long and hard). And I drank a lot of liquids - even more water than usual for me. My body MUST know what it's doing and I NEED to listen.


Anyhow, day two. Maybe I won't be hungry all day. I feel good now...30 minutes after I ate! *lol* That's the other thing, I haven't been pushing food down with liquid either. I've been waiting my 30 minutes in between like I've been taught, so it's not that. I'm not abusing my tool on purpose. I have to give it a few more days and see if it settles itself.

Work - lots of it
Working through lunch so I can get out of here a little early.
30 minutes ST at the gym (I'd love 45-60m but I've got a busy day)
And then off to home to grab my son so I can transport him to the board meeting to receive his award.
No plan for cooking tonight - leftovers or stir fry. We've got so many leftovers right now we need to eat up so it's necessary.

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    What's your "cycle" like? I have found that I have crazy increased hunger during ovulation week and of course, PMS week. You did everything right to identify it as true hunger! Continue listening to your body, eat when you're hungry, and don't eat yourself up over a few cookies. You got this!
    1014 days ago
  • ERIN1128
    I HATE those hungry days! Though in my case, it's usually because I'm doing too many carbs and not enough protein.
    1015 days ago
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    I have those days a lot. Hunger is a feeling, right? So, when I feel hungry when I know I shouldn't, I ask myself, is it really hunger I am feeling? I access the situation, am I stressed, am I masking another feeling, of sadness, frustration or anger as hunger (I do that a lot)? Then I try to push through, get up, do something else, drink water (I am surprised at how often it is thirst) and sometimes I eat the candy. The more you ask, the more you'll know!!

    Keep pushing!!
    1015 days ago
    Good Luck!
    1015 days ago
    I have those hungry days too! I find that sometimes it helps to eat a larger meal all at once rather than to graze. Sometimes eating smaller portions more frequently makes me more hungry rather than less.
    1015 days ago
    I wish you the best! Maybe add fiber to those snacks to help feel full. I totally understand the crazy hunger cycle. you can do this!
    1015 days ago
    Great job
    1015 days ago
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