Here We Go Again - The Final Push

Monday, April 16, 2018

The Date: Monday, April 16, 2018
Weight Today: 216
Lowest Weight: 206
Next Goal Weight: 199.9
Final Goal Weight: 166.6

To say that life has been crazy lately would be an extreme understatement. In just the past few years:

- I had my VSG (11/2/15)
- I had serious abuse issues resurface (10/24/16)
- I got separated (same day)
- I met someone new (11/4/16)
- I filed for and got divorced (Nov/Dec 2016)
- I went through custody battles (early 2016)
- I went from receiving support for my sons to having to pay support and supporting myself and my youngest all on my own (Sep 2017)
- My boyfriend moved in (this weekend)

It's been a whirlwind. I was exhausted. I took a couple weeks off of running and training and being so darn diligent in losing every last pound. And now I'm ready to get back to a normal life, so help me!

Things coming up:

- 5k this weekend
- 4 miler in October (registered!)
- looking into a half marathon in September, a 15k in November, and then the eventual half marathon I've been shooting for in February

More than anything, I want to lose this weight and eventually have my skin removal surgery. I would LOVE to be around 160-170 pounds when all is said and done. I don't know how much of that I can do on my own and how much will need surgical intervention to get to, but I'm ready to devote myself to doing whatever I can to make this happen. So I'm going back to the things I know that work for me, the things my doctor has recommended, and the way I want to live my life.

emoticon Food
Eat more at home.
Meal prep for the week.
Less sweets!
40/30/30 at around 1500-2500 calories (not sure yet with training)
More protein and vegetables, less carbs (unless training calls for it)
More water? (Truth: I have a HARD time getting water in, so I'm working on that)

emoticon Fitness
4-5 workouts every week
Yoga at least 1 day a week
Running at least 3 days a week
2 days of ST in or out of the gym
45 minute workouts are the goal
Consistency is key!

emoticon Self
Journal and blog, because it helps!
Take time to read and relax!
Find FUN adventures to sprinkle throughout the year.
Set goals and keep working toward them.
Work on getting more and better sleep.
Stop stressing over every little thing!
Forgive yourself and move on.
Accept nothing less but the best from yourself and others!
Get rid of anything that brings you down.

I'm going into this knowing that I have the ability and the motivation. I just have to keep driving forward with my goals. I've been SO afraid of big distances and bogged down by money issues and life stresses and I have to let all of that go and know that it will happen in time if I just keep moving forward.

M - 2-3 miles at the gym (stupid rain!)
T - ST at the gym (will have to be a short session)
W - 2 road miles
R - Rest
F - Hot yoga
S - 5k race
U - Rest

I'm also working on getting my house in order, getting rid of anything the ex left behind and making sure there's room for James without him feeling haunted by my past. I hate to say that it was hard to let go, but it was. I had to forgive myself. This wasn't my fault. I made the best of a bad situation until I could and HAD TO get out. And now it's quite alright for me to move on and be angry and hurt by what's NOT okay to let it ruin the rest of my life and my new relationship. But James has told me that there's no rush and I can work through this as slowly as I need to in order to make it happen. The grace he's shown me has been incredible and freeing! But I want it gone. I want it over. I want to move on completely!

At either 199.9 or when I hit my half marathon distance goal I'll be getting my goodbye tattoo. And I want it so bad I can taste it so I'm ready to get this show on the road! I'm also looking forward to being as healthy and fit as possible when I go to Europe with my youngest son this summer, so I have goals and I need to focus so that I can reach them!

So here we go again!
Never give up!
Never stop improving!
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  • ERIN1128
    You really have had a wild couple of years, but I'm so proud of you for hanging in there!
    1009 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4764832
    Great Stuff Ester! Thanks for the update! I know you will do everything you set your mind too!
    1009 days ago
    Holy cow! emoticon a whirlwind few years for sure! Your boyfriend is right, you have to take time to heal and move on. Don't push feelings away, they'll only resurface when you least expect it. Speaking from experience.

    You have a great plan. I'm so happy for you moving on and taking care of yourself!

    Here's to a great week! emoticon
    1009 days ago
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