100 days of OMAD: 21
Wednesday, April 11, 2018
Yesterday was spent mostly in a sofa, discussion food and diets with my friend. It is sort of an ephiphany to me to experience the simpleness of travelling without bothering about food at all, and I wonder if I can use that thought to change my attitude to food habits. Because convenience is a big motiator to me, I love thinking "KISS" - keep it simple stupid. In axssociation with my compulsive eating I have used it to form strategies to avoid temptations and action plans for situations where I have had to expose myself to those temptations.
But the thing I enjoy most with giving up alcohol is how simple life became - I never had to make any decisions over if to drink, what to drink and how to get home if I had a drink (living in the countryside it is alwas a question of who is driving)... this was similar - no problems about when to eat or what to eat during my trip.
That said I admit that my brain ghosts started to whisper this morning - that maybe I would eat on my way home as I was such a good girl not eating on my way here.... so silly because I don´t want any food, I am not hungry (well, a minute now and then but not distrubing) and I don´t have the usual cravings from being bored. So – this is the disease talkin, it might be leptin or ghrelin or whatever but it has no bearing in reality. I told my friend about my sick thought - which made them go away.
I´m writing this sitting on the train. Not trusting myself I asked my friend to stay with me while I bought the two bottles of mineral water I wanted and I feel pretty safe now. But I have to change trains twice, there are many chances of delays and I have a lot of respect for my cunning disease, it takes every chance to persuade me.
Wish me luck!