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Middle of the night...

Saturday, April 07, 2018

I am sleeping... just not on a “normal “ schedule. (Who decides what’s normal anyway?). I am sleeping in the early evening until the middle of the night... and then I am up. I could probably do with a couple more hours each night, but that’s not going to happen until my downstairs neighbors move out. I generally make one of two choices when I am up at the dark hour... I can either meditate, or go out and walk (or run, depending on my mood, and the state of the sidewalks). Cooper is sound asleep that time of night, so I am comfortable leaving him for up to 2 hours uncrated. I did my due diligence as far as safety goes... and stopped and asked the village police station what areas or neighborhoods to avoid... and the officer just chuckled, and said be aware and alert, but don’t worry too much. When the patrol officers see me out there at night they wave (or give a chin lift) so I feel pretty safe. In fact I believe the apartment building I live in may have the highest crime rate in the village, despite being a s cured building... which is why I keep my door locked! Anyway ... if I chose to meditate (which happens more often when the weather is threatening) I do deep breathing, progressive relaxation, and after my mind and body are calm I start making my to-do lists for the day or week, or review my goals. One thing I noticed the other night. Was that I was veering away from SMART goals, which work and build a pattern of success... and more into big picture/amorphous goals... which are actually wishes and are almost pointless. So I spent a morning rewriting my goals. It helped. Some of my wants/needs right now are out of my control and in the hands of medical professionals. I find that rather frustrating, and I know a number of my spark friends can relate to the frustration... but I can control how I react. How I process information... and to a lesser extent how I cope with my anxiety. I am always looking for the “silver lining “ in pretty much any situation. My brother says I am naive, but I say I am just looking to generate a positive attitude, so I can pass that energy along, rather than being grumpy and cynical. Hmmm... I wonder if I am right or just fooling myself? Being awake when most of this side of the world is sleeping gives me a good bit of time to read and contemplate, as well as exercise, and plot and plan my days... I have NEVER been anything but a night owl who slept until noon if I could... so this sleep pattern is new and different for me. I kinda like the quiet and isolation. Everyone is always so busy and going to get stuff “done” during the daylight hours. There’s something naturally introspective about the dark hours after midnight... I am finding I am liking it.
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    I am pretty much early to bed...mostly by 10 or 10:30 and early to rise...6:00 or 6:30 a.m. Did you know that in the wee hours of the morning our earth plane is closest to the spiritual plane? I always think and feel I connect with our Josh if I wake up about 2:30 or 3:00 a.m.

    I'm glad your policemen know of your early runs and are there watching out for you. Be safe my sweet one!

    I think you are absolutely right in looking at the best in any situation. Let your brother think you are naive...I think you are brave and hopeful...that's a million times better! emoticon
    252 days ago
    As long as it works for you - keep doing what you need to - just be safe.
    252 days ago
    It took me a long time to regulate my sleep. I still occasionally wake up somewhere between 2:30 and 3:30, but now I fall back asleep within a half hour. Thank goodness. When I don't, I accept it and get started on my day. No sense in fighting it.
    253 days ago
    Four months after retiring from being a night nurse, I still can’t get to sleep before 1 or 2 AM. It plays holy heck on the days I need to be somewhere by 8 or 9 in the morning. I hope to flip around better when the sun comes up earlier. I like the early morning walks in the hot summer months.
    253 days ago
    Going for a walk in those hours here would be signing my death certificate and I live in a nice neighbourhood ! Hazards of a big city!
    253 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    You have done quite well in figuring out how to get on the right path. I love the early AM walks you mentioned. I used to love going out to walk after dark , it is so much more relaxing than the daylight walking .
    Indeed a positive mind set makes life better. Yeah it takes exercise mentally ..and mediation is one of the best! I agree with you that it makes nearly every aspect of life better! Thank you for such a wise and insightful blog!

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    253 days ago
    I LOVE my quiet nights!! I dont even try on most nights until 2AM. It was 4AM, but was sometimes sleeping later then I prefer.

    I'd much rather be positive. Its way more helpful. Having of been in a very deep, dark depression I NEVER want to go back there again!!! Goooo for it!!
    253 days ago
    At least you are using your time wisely! That's awesome.
    253 days ago
    Glad you are focused on such good self care through this!

    I have been studying this week and heard an interesting idea: our brains are so hardwired toward noticing the negative, that focusing on the positive is the only way we can open ourselves up to reality.

    It is not about positive thinking, it is about REALISTIC thinking!

    We can do this.
    253 days ago
    I like to sleep in the mornings and go to bed at 2-3am. Now that I am retired I can unless wife has some jobs for me. She naps ll durimg the day.
    253 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    My ex-BIL worked night shift, he said he could never be up all day.. I am the opposite,, we are all different. Embrace what your body is telling you.,.
    254 days ago
    glad you are trying to see the positive....
    254 days ago
  • MBPP50
    I’m glad that you’re able to find some good in difficult circumstances. emoticon
    254 days ago
    I have always been a person that needed about 8 or 9 hours of sleep a night, but with age that has lowered to 7 or 8. I like to get up early before DH so I have some quiet time to sip my coffee and plan out our day. It lets me start out the day slowly and let it build.

    You sound like you have some very nice walks so early in the morning. It has tempted me to try doing the same, but I have not ventured out early yet. I like to let my joints and muscles warm up a little first, and late morning or early afternoon seem to work better for me. Of course I don't get in the miles you do!
    254 days ago
    That sounds like me I work 4a-4p so I tend to stay up when others sleep I love that time being up it seem quite and serene
    254 days ago
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