Friday, April 06, 2018
Ever noticed that your attitude influences your behavior? If my attitude is crap, then all I see is negative around me. If my attitude is positive, then I act differently, think differently, believe differently.
I'd noticed I'd been really angry the last couple of days. I work with some seriously negative women, and at times it affects me. It doesn't matter that some days I'm still a little angry about all the loss and grief and just missing my Sami. That stuff is normal. She is my kid, I'm supposed to miss her. But what do I do with that??
Well, I don't know about you guys, but when my attitude is crabby, it makes my life pretty miserable. So, what to do about it?!!
I took a longer walk. I talked to a friend about how I was feeling. I made a recovery meeting. I was honest about my feelings. And then, I surrendered that insanity to my Higher Power and let that stuff go.
I remember that I loved and still love my child, even though she is gone. I still love my youngest daughter, and every day with her is a gift. I love my job, even with the two grouchy women. I love helping my students. I love how my body feels from walking and moving more. I love the changes I feel, even when I don't "see" them. I love my recovery and my friends. I love my life. See? I have a lot to be grateful for!
It's all about shifting that attitude from negative straight back into positive! I can do that, even if it starts at five minutes at a time.
Today is a beautiful day. I think I'll embrace it!