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Stalled and Fluxing

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

This is the slowest, most yo-yo journey ever. I have gone through spurts in life where I dropped a ton of weight fast to steadily and this is just...ridiculous.

So I've been yo-yo-ing the same 6 to 10 pounds since January. I am not centered in healthy motivation. I have become...stubborn, I think, in my recent years where I am not interested in changing for other people AT ALL, which I think is as it should be. Problem is, interest in changing FOR ME is kinda like, out to lunch, too. I almost wonder if it's low-level depression, and I just have had it for so long I don't even feel it. But I tend to ask "why?" to a lot of things and if I don't get an answer, it's not terribly motivating. The non-motivators? Ego. Self(ishness). The "Everybody-look-at-me's". Acceptance. All these things need to kiss my butt, because they are crap. So now I am digging for the REAL motivators...self-love. Good self-image. Taking care of what you have been given, GRATEFULNESS....

*Frustrated*

The other reality is some of this at this point could be hormones shifting. Friend suggested b12, which I picked up today after trying hers for a few days. Not sure if it's just the power of suggestion or the power of the b12, but it seems to be doing something....
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  • PELESJEWEL
    emoticon I am so there with you! My happy body is sitting high on a plateau, having the best view of life. Scale moved 1 lbs today, lost the same dang pound I gained. LOL. Yet, I can lose weight fast, and have, but it creeps back. Since I've been going slower, I've seen the NSV victories of more muscle tone and strength, and am learning to be happy with the changing body. I am changing up my routine in APR, MAY, JUN, adding interval running to the mix. Have a good evening Spark Sister!
    207 days ago
  • BCHARIE
    I have to practice the vision of what I want daily so that my behavior matches the vision, ie eat right and exercise.
    207 days ago
  • BCHARIE
    I feel ya! This is a conversation to have over a big pot of coffee! I tend to look at the future. I'm 68, do I want to sit my fat, unhealthy butt in a chair or do I want to get up and do something interesting? I'm going with doing something.
    207 days ago
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