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What does Weight Matter, Really?

Tuesday, March 20, 2018


Once upon a time, when I was about 120#, I was obsessed with the number on the scale. I got my self-worth from deprivation and strict adherence to ridiculous rules about eating and health. I was never satisfied with my weight, I wanted desperately to have a 26" waist (can you imagine?! I am 5'8" and not even built for that!!) Of course I was also about 20 yrs old and strung out on drugs trying to obtain this unobtainable goal!!

Today, for the first time in my life I AM HAPPY WITH MY BODY. Nope. Not even at my goal weight. I still have weight I can lose, but I eat healthier. I walk, a lot. I don't sit around on my butt bemoaning my size or weight or some ridiculous goal (for me). I find gratitude in every single day. I see that I have many blessings. I have learned that there is more to me than a number on a scale! Who would have thought 30 yrs ago that would happen? Oh, yeah, and I've been drug and chemical free for most of the last 30 yrs (that helped, ha).

I see young women my daughters ages doing the same thing I used to do. And I tell them, look at yourself in the mirror, and SEE how beautiful you are, right now, today, don't wait. I love them till they can learn to love themselves. Because I did not learn that growing up, and I want to pass it on. It matters

If no one has told you today, I love you. I mean it. And I'm here. Peace.
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