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Monday, March 12, 2018

I wish I was a writer who can use fancy words and get there point across and be motivational, but All I feel right now is fear, anxiety and loneliness...I can’t have an animal. My husband is allergic. I have a fear of driving now...and I want to go see the horses I rode...but I can't. Every thing seems to be "I can't"....I feel immobilized....I lost my best friend...she didn't die, but she did something that was so wrong and she needs to discuss or with me, but she hasn't called...my daughter says go play cards or bingo or go to an exercise class, but these people are not like my friend who was like a sister that I never had...
My husband sleeps in the guest bedroom and doesn't eBen say good night..no kisses...no hugs...I feel disjointed...and I feel sick... I don't want to eat except my favorite comfort food...but that’s a temporary fix...
I'm determined to loose more weight... for me..not for anyone else...I’m trying to do more work around the house...I like cleaning...call me crazy, but I enjoy it...I want to get into my photography... I’m so tired during the day, and wide awake at night...
I'm venting because I know we each go through similar situations at times. I would appreciate any suggestions for coping.....
Thanks all Ezz
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  • BLAULKEIM
    i feel for,i go though periods of complete loneliness. i do not walk independently so i rely on my husband, but he is not always there. i have no friends since my accident,,only my husband. i would love an ongoing relationship with someone. hope does not mean it will happen. oh well.i have many wishes, walking on my own, no more falls,total independence. but i must remain realistic and i am who i am. many good things have happened in the last 13 years
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