Update on Pneumonia Recovery:
Saturday, March 10, 2018
Physical status: much the same as last month -- only I don't "feel" the sputum in my lungs anymore. I am coughing much less. My lung capacity seems to have slipped a bit --either because I am no longer taking medicine or because I've stopped doing my lung exercises. I do notice that I don't have the stamina at aerobics that I had in December (before admitting that I was falling sick). That's what happens SO fast when you are 60+! But I am slowly getting that back as I keep pushing myself to regain what I lost. I have great days and I have less than great days...
Emotional status: ...but I am satisfied. I feel good. No pain and very little coughing -- breathing easy! I'm no longer anxious about what Might Happen if I push myself "too hard". My family is still treating me gently (everybody saw what happened in the hospital when I apparently scared the sh*t outa them) so stress is wa...aaayyy down! I actually feel like myself again -- happy and content. I haven't felt "happy and content" in decades.
Spiritually: hopefully, making progress. The older I get the more AWARE I become of my spiritual failings. And that's a start -- a place from which to begin change. And hopefully, God will allow me the time to make changes. I've been nursing my hurt for decades and I'm finally learning to let it go and really forgive. I begin to see my own failings in my relationships. And I'm beginning to forgive myself and love myself anyway. Why do I think this is spiritual work? .... because God is love and my love must start with me and then be sent outward.