Saturday, February 10, 2018
So I'm going to remind myself that plateau's happen and they suck!! I need to continue to work through it!! I want to scream...2-3 hours of cardio a day..how can my body continue to hold on to the darn weight...I'm 236 pounds...I can see why if I were 100 pounds lighter but darn it!! I'm working so hard!! It isn't fair....seeing all the tiny people at the gym..why?? That is the one thing that I hate most...all the skinny people in their cute workout clothes and I look like Shamu over here ...sweating, and pushing myself and still my stupid body has to hold on..like darn let that nasty fat go..I just need to remember..not trying to offend anyone..I want to smash the mirror Everytime I see myself..disgusting pig is all I see...why did I do that to myself Why!!