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Bad week

Saturday, February 10, 2018

I had a bad last half of the week.

My job was really stressing me out. I used to think I’d stay with this company for years, but now I’m to the point that, at my 1 year anniversary (If my team dynamic does not drastically improve, which I’m trying to help facilitate every day), I’m planning to start looking for another job and answering recruiters. Just making this decision makes me feel better, because I have a new goal to work towards and a light at the end of the tunnel .. until then,, I’ll keep learning and investing in my ongoing education and doing my best to get along with the toxic culture without causing a fuss or letting anyone walk all over me. Unfortunately, 2 of my bootcamp fellow graduates who also were hired at my same company saw my post about crying at work on Facebook and told me they felt the same way :( I know there are better companies out there, even if they don’t pay as well. Money isn’t worth being mistreated. I’ve been through too much abuse in my life to settle for it now.

Rant over. Ok, so let me just be honest and say I’ve slipped from my diet for emotional reasons this week. I’m not defending it... just saying that is what happened. DEEP BREATHS. It’s okay. I’m back on track today, and I’m working through the emotions without the help of junky carby food. I deserve to be treated well not only by others, but also by myself. I deserve a nice massage and a hike in nature and a big plate of steamed vegetables and a cup of beef stew. And that’s what I’m going to give myself 🍲. Luckily my fiancé and my friends are very emotionally supportive, and I am trying my best not to internalize any of this work stress into my self image, with their help.

I’m just going to keep rising and being positive, no matter what. ✌️ And, worst case scenario, I’ve still got the anxiety meds to use in emergencies.

I’m so, so ready for Spring! This snow & subarctic temperatures will be gone in a month, and maybe this work crisis will pass too. I will do my best to keep my moods up, but March can’t come soon enough.
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    Good for you! rise above! and, yes, yes, yes!! Don't allow yourself to treat yourself badly either!
    283 days ago
    You are a strong and an amazing woman. I'm happy that you have a terrific support system. This is so important for the weight loss journey. Prayers and emoticon
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    283 days ago
    Yeah, priorities. I've been emotionally eating and bouncing back up and down with the same 10lbs for the past couple of months. (okay, up to 13 at one point, but, whose counting?) I've got things to deal with and I'm not letting it go on for long periods of time, which is all I can really expect from myself for now.

    Best of luck with the work deal. It takes it's toll and I agree, not worth it.
    283 days ago
    good for you for making plans for your future. You DO deserve to be treated nicely. And yes, even by yourself.
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    In times of stress--some times it is just too much to expect everything to be the top priority. This is what I think is so amazingly brilliant about the SP approach--you don't have to do it all in one day--making the choice to move away from the stressors in your life, is helping you in the long run achieve all of your goals. Hurray! The rest will come one-step-at-a-time. It isn't all or nothing. I'm so proud of you!

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