I just looked at the bottom of my Nutition Tracking page and realized that I haven't been completing my tracking every day. Hmmm. I do very well... until later afternoon.... If I made it to dinner "clean" I have had some grazing behavior tween dinner and bedtime. "Better choices" in the cabinets - you bet. But ... over calories in means over calories out. And I'm still de-icing the plane at the gate for the calories out. Injuries. Yes, really. Just as I get going...I hurt too much and find the couch again. Start stop phenomenon. Part real. Part... not believing in my goals enough. Maybe.
I'm CLEARING - closets, cobwebs in my muscles, uncovering intentions
I'm willing to be more Free
And my habits of a lifetime ... (step on a crack... color in the lines... all or nothing... not enough... maybe someday... maybe not....) Ooooh mama... I am just Done With These - See them - Know how hogtied I've been for ....
Time time time
I'm not going to think about the past
Only NOW - So for me Today's read of Braving (acronym from Brene Brown)
Boundaries - redefining that - in food, in my relationships, in my aspirations, in my physical space
Reliability - Doing what I say I'm going to do FOR ME. I have loved making a career of facilitating others... it has given me the experience of showing up reliably at high standards. When it's for others... the cost:benefit and risk:reward is different. Clearing this too.
Accountability - redefining the Truest parts of this. Not record-keeping. But TRUTH.
Vault - This is my strong suit. Always has been.
Integrity -- I knew this was my theme. A word that's been like a bubble over my head and on my sleeve for a long time... asking me to understand what it means to me and for me and with me. Me with me.
Non Judgement -- This is a super hard one for me. Perfectionism makes for non-starting. Perfectionism shuts down even the most earnest moves. Perfectionism can hurt performance. And it does protect, but at way too high a cost.
Generosity -- Being more available to others. And to myself. Gratitude and Abundance practice.
So... This blog has become footprints of what I've been reading and resonating with ...
But it is also a footprint a handprint a fingerprint a snowflake
I WANT BETTER
"Living in the present moment
The present moment is always perfect"