Working to Make Healthy Choices the First Think
Sunday, January 21, 2018
So the weekend has been...interesting. Friday was great. Worked a half day, then went to the grocery store with my hubby. Got a lot of food since my younger son Joshua was coming to visit for the week. Oh! And I also bought a Sparkpeople Cookbook! I got a lot of ingredients for the recipes I found there and I'm pretty excited about trying them. I'll let you know what I make and how it turns out. Then I went to the gym and had a great workout. Since I got back on the horse, working out has been a CHORE. Not at all what it had become on my last long term healthy time. I have been doing mostly walking because even that was just killing me. I decided to do the elliptical, and was only shooting for 5 minutes. Well... I did 15! And it actually felt really good. Then I did weights for a couple of minutes, then treadmill for over 30 minutes. So - yay me!
Saturday my son got here. I put some spaghetti and meatballs in the crockpot for him and my husband because I had a gig. I did really well...then on the way to the gig stopped for coffee and ate two donuts. Not good - but of course, I told myself I was still way under my calories and would be working a lot of it off onstage dancing - all of which was true. But still not good. It was "rote eating." Like there's a switch in my brain that clocks into "nobody knows what you eat - you're bored in the car - you know you want it" thinking. And in fact, I really didn't want it...but I ate it. So I got to the gig and we all went to Dank Burrito (a popular place) which was next to the venue. I ordered a healthier burrito (chicken, tomatoes, a bit of guac and cheese) and actually only ate a few bites - because I DIDN'T really want it. Then we played two 45 minute sets and I danced the whole time. But on the way home, the voices started, "You could go get a pizza and eat it on the way home." But I didn't really WANT to eat a pizza. I had some chips in the car that had come with the burrito. I decided to eat those to satisfy the "voices." Didn't even enjoy them, but at least it kept me from going for a pizza. So - all in all, I stayed in my calorie range, especially given the exercise I had.
Today I got up and made pancakes for the guys and only ate a cup of cottage cheese. We were planning to go to the movies and I love movie popcorn and was planning to eat a small bag. Well, we went to see Jumanji (hilarious and great fun!) and also The Last Jedi (loved it). I ate popcorn BOTH times and some Milk Duds for the second show. UGH. I felt AWFUL. THEN I took my son to Outback for dinner. The last thing I wanted to do was eat, but I did - but just until I was full. Not binging - but again, not really eating well OR because of hunger, which I'm getting into the habit of doing again.
So definitely some positives. At least I was THINKING about alternatives and thinking about what I need to do to offset my choices. Already have plans for the rest of the week to eat healthy and go to the gym daily. So that's good- but I REALLY want there to come a day when I don't even HAVE those voices.
In other news, the lead guitar player that I was supposed to audition tonight for my band backed out AGAIN. *sigh* So back to square one on that.
My son will be here for the week which will be fun. I'm working from home which is always nice, too. I really want to amp up my fitness this week and have more victories on my eating plan, so that's the goal.
I GOT THIS.