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Food addiction

Friday, January 12, 2018

I had an aha moment. I just realized that I'm here not so much to lose weight but to control my food addiction. I have lost 165 lbs total. I am 6 months into a marital separation. I moved to a different state. Took the first job that I was offered. That job happened to be in a restaurant. My work environment has made it impossible for me to resist eating even when I am full. It's food I normally wouldn't have eaten any other time. It's like being an alcoholic in a bar. I don't know why I torture myself. I decided tonight that I am going to leave that job for my sanity and physical health.i I want to enjoy my food and not hide in the corner to sneak bites when no one is looking. I would be so upset if I gained any weight back. I worked really hard to get a good relationship with food. I am thankful for this community and to read about others overcoming thier struggles. I was able to hold myself accountable for my food intake which led me to this insight. Now that I know what the problem is I can work through a solution.
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    I hear you, if I ever worked in the food industry or for a creamery I would gain so much weight. It's so easy to just keep eating when you are so close to food all the time. I turn to it when I am feeling emotional or stressed or bored, its so easy to just keep eating...

    Good job though, it sounds like you are making good choices towards a healthier future.
    936 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11442703
    Totally understand how difficult that is!
    938 days ago
    Finding a different job sounds like the perfect place to start. Removing those temptations will make it easier to remain in control.

    938 days ago
  • JOANN25
    The first step to control any problem is to recognize that you have it and work from there. you do need to leave the restaurant as there are too many temptations there. Go forward ... forget the negative ... and work hard to have positive thoughts and actions. You will feel better and will be able to meet your goals.

    Keep Sparking.
    938 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    i know how you feel. during college i worked in a dormitory dinning hall and received free meals. at the start i had a problem controlling what and how much i ate. after a short time i decided that i had to control myself. it took time, but i was able to do it.
    938 days ago
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