Friday, January 12, 2018
I had an aha moment. I just realized that I'm here not so much to lose weight but to control my food addiction. I have lost 165 lbs total. I am 6 months into a marital separation. I moved to a different state. Took the first job that I was offered. That job happened to be in a restaurant. My work environment has made it impossible for me to resist eating even when I am full. It's food I normally wouldn't have eaten any other time. It's like being an alcoholic in a bar. I don't know why I torture myself. I decided tonight that I am going to leave that job for my sanity and physical health.i I want to enjoy my food and not hide in the corner to sneak bites when no one is looking. I would be so upset if I gained any weight back. I worked really hard to get a good relationship with food. I am thankful for this community and to read about others overcoming thier struggles. I was able to hold myself accountable for my food intake which led me to this insight. Now that I know what the problem is I can work through a solution.