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Day 10 of 2018

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Today was rough. I thought I'd feel better after my SVT diagnosis but I'm still depressed about it. What are my abilities? Will I ever be able to travel without being scared? Can I go mountain climbing? Can I run a 5K? I don't know but it makes me sad thinking I can't

I have not taken a Beta Blocker yet and last night was rough. I ate some of my sister's artichoke dip and was bloated for hours. My heart skipped and pounded all night. Then my stomach was upset during the day and it still skipped so I slept for part of the day. In the afternoon I took my son's class some cupcakes for my son's 6th birthday.

I have a couple reservations on taking a beta blocker. I hear it can kill your sex drive. I just don't want that......plain and simple

Another reservation. I'm on the fence about getting pregnant again. I'm not sure I would actually try but I feel like if I take them then its like I have to close the door on it. I'm not getting any younger and I worry enough what my second pregnancy would be like when my first one was pretty rough over six years ago. I wish the cardiologist had been there to talk to me rather than them sending me the NP. Nothing against her but she didn't seem very sure of her answers.

I'm frustrated with my cardiologist options in this area. This guy was my 3rd. The first guy I saw in 2010 said I was having panic attacks but he said my condition would get worse over time. I still don't even know what it was he was referring to. He never actually gave me a diagnosis and why tell me this without offering me assurance or solutions. He made it sound dangerous which put me in panic mode.

The 2nd cardiologist was so rude to me on my first visit that I cried. He would not even let me talk. Who does that?

The 3rd guy I like but its hard to get in for a visit and I'm not happy I got the NP for my diagnosis consultation. I'm not supposed to go back for 2 months. I miss the days when I could have a doc that remembered me, cared about me and listened to me. Makes me want to go back to small town life.

My palpitations have subsided for now but they might pick back up tonight since I'm having some gas this evening from the food I ate. Tomorrow I start sucralfate for my bile disorder. I hope I get some good results from it.

I also need to go back and have my thyroid checked.

For now I will do some Leslie Sansone in my living room. I also bought a program called Body Groove on Facebook. I saw that its actually senior friendly. Hey that's my kind of workout! My 70 year old neighbor gets around better than I do. I can't workout with her. I just want some energy and stamina back.

My 2018 goal is to have more positive things to say about my health rather than negative.
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  • SUGIRL06
    My husband kept getting the NP at his primary care office until he insisted on only seeing his doctor. He has to wait longer to go in but its worth it to him! I'm sorry you are having a hard time with doctors. I feel like its a very bad trend lately :-/
    875 days ago
    I would take your husband in with you when you talk to the doctor. Write down questions and do not let the doctor deter you from getting your answers. Having someone else helps with understanding what was said as when it is a scary diagnosis you don't always hear everything. It's terrible in this day and age to say that doctors ignore women's concerns but it is true. I've experienced it numerous times. When I take my husband in with me the doctor has a completely different attitude and goes into detail without being pushed into giving answers.
    875 days ago
    I wish you had been able to see the cardiologist too. We have the same problem here in that we don't have a lot of choices. Beta Blockers help a lot of people and everyone doesn't get all the side effects. I wish you could find a good doctor as you need an M.D. with good problem solving skills and good instincts. Do you know any nurses who could recommend a doctor to you?.
    875 days ago
    Thanks y'all for the love! I'm so glad ya'll took the time to stop and read my blog. The comments are so helpful and comforting right now. emoticon
    876 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    One other quick comment, when I was on beta blockers, I did not notice a difference in my sex life. All was good.
    876 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    I have had several cardiologists, simply because mine was not available. But he is the one I like and feel most comfortable with and that's very important to me. With your first, you should've asked him a ton of questions until you were satisfied that you understood everything. The second I would've probably reported and not bothered giving him a second chance. Make your appointments well in advance and make it clear you will only see him.
    876 days ago
    I tried sucralfate for my ulcers. It helped me . I hope it helps you
    876 days ago
  • no profile photo CHRISTOPHER63
    876 days ago
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