Come a long way...
Tuesday, January 09, 2018
Welp, it has been over 500 days since I have been here. I have joined a year long "Prevent Type 2 Diabetes" class, and we need to record our food and activity... which naturally brought me back to SparkPeople. It was sad to see my old goals, and how I am now almost thirty pounds heavier than I was last time I signed in. :( However, I have to give myself credit. I have faced a lot of that emotional baggage that has kept me from being consistent with my goals. I have been in therapy for over two years, due to emotional abuse in my marriage. It has been a long road. It is hard facing those really difficult parts of your life. Takes a great deal of courage and work. I am grateful for the progress I have made.
Now that I have worked through things, it is time to make changes. I am currently trying to decide if staying in my marriage is doable or not. Once I approached my husband with divorce, he has done a complete turn around and is doing everything he can to change my mind. Anyone who has gone through this can agree it can be really confusing!! So, I am figuring that out. In the meantime, I need to take care of "me". As I mentioned in my intro, I got my teaching certificate back. I am currently subbing for a darling Kindergarten class, long term, for three to four weeks. I love it! I hope this can help me secure a full time job in the future. Moving with those little ones does wear me out, so this is a great time to get in shape! I have a lot motivating me, and feel much more emotionally grounded, so I believe I can do this.
Anyone who wants to take this journey with me is more than welcome! Losing weight is tough. Facing the "hard" in your life is tough. Making tough choices is TOUGH. But that is what creates a life worth living. And my life is definitely worth living! :)