Food Dreams

Sunday, January 07, 2018

I'm grieving. I'm grieving my relationship with food, and how it is changing. During the day, my rational mind is in control, and I drink my shakes, and drink my water, and my tea and my broth and I am good, centered. I night I dream of eating lunch at my favorite deli, Red Door Cafe and having a Reuben and a bowel of soup. That's not going to happen for a very long while and not in the quantity as before. I dream of the girls from work going out for lunch, and now, me staying back and working on paperwork - wait that wasn't a dream, that happened Friday, till I ran errands by myself. I dream of the chocolate river that was the Dairy Queen commercial in the 80's. That one woke me up,and I stood in front of the refrigerator and looked at his stupid Apple pie and thought- what happens if I cheat? Steve yells at me, my liver doesn't shrink, surgery is harder, recovery is harder. I had a muscle milk shake instead. To say, my sleep was restless is an understatement. But finally, I sleep well and dreamless and until my body woke up. At noon. I think I needed it.

Now I have to decided what to do today. I have to adult. I have to go to office, and print. I have to work on insurance claims, I have make a list of other adulting that has to get done Mon-Friday.

I have to gather ingredients for saturday event dinner. I need to call my aunt about Saturday event dinner. I need to clean my bed room and change sheets, ext. I need to do more laundry. Grocery list for Bailey.

Errands to do Mon-friday

Monday- met with Dani, Anna, flyers

All over flyers

Monday Farmer's insurance- get packet

Tuesday- go to Gym, sign up, flyers

Wednesday- paybills, order catalogs, order 31,Bank- get Oct-Dec print outs, 50 cash, flyers

Thursday, party city?

Pharmacy on Friday, national pharmacy day and check vitamins.

I got a note from Spark Coach Denise that my blog on 1/6 was edited to remove content about my P**** business. Now I have to figure out a way to talk about my passion, and my day to day life without appearing salesy or offending the guidelines. It will be hard because I blog in three places, Google for P***business, Spark for diet, and facebook for social. I will have to tweek each one.
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    You are not eating for long term. Diet shakes and broth? will lose weight, but then you will gain it back once you tire of eating this way
    682 days ago
    ((((HUGS))) Hang in there.
    682 days ago
    Argh! I know why they have to curtail mention of unmentionables, but maybe there are powers that be be that could give you an exception?
    682 days ago
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