Wow, back at it...
Saturday, January 06, 2018
I blogged, better than eating your feelings. I have been away for so very long, and there have been some changes.
Ok, so I wont bore you with details of the last week, but the pre-op classes for barriatric surgery went well, and the pre-op colonoscopy helped me to lose 10 lbs over night. I told the Colonoscopy doctor that I was NEVER doing that again, even if there are risk factors. Oh MY, what a long and absolutely horrid night and day!. But I came home, and day 1 of pre-op liguid's started. I drank my protein shakes, and my water, and did ok. I rocked the day job, and got notice that my FMLA, and shared leave request went through, so that was good. Then my husband, in a stellar less than supportive move, planned a family gathering at an all you can eat Chinese food buffet. I went, and drank my shake, and some tea and was hangry. Next day, day two, I rocked work, had some small issues with boundaries when my boss asked me to prioritize my co-workers work over mine, in a crisis, which I did, but it will add to the stress of next week, and I can guarantee my co-worker won't be helping me. I drank my shake, and went to grocery store and bought some ready to go protein shakes to keep at work. I had a marvelous #PINKINK night ( more below) and drank my shake. Then my husband communicated with my son about supplies and brought home massive amounts of junk food for them to eat. I'm hangry. I tried to be rational. I tried to talk myself into saying that just because I can't eat it, doesn't mean that they can't, and that I am going to learn how to deal. They left it out on the counter. I put my dog out for his middle of the night romp and pee, and eat a roll. Hangry.
I need to accept that my husband will not be my most supportive person. I know the reasons, this threatens him, he hates change, he hates spending money etc. But I can at least ask for no acts of deliberate sabotage.
This surgery, my most extreme act of self care, is a life changer. When told it was three days in the hospital, and that I expected him to be there, he said no. he can't be away from work, it doesn't go well when he is not there. I agreed to the actually day, and my mother in law is picking up his slack for the rest. When told that LIFE will change, he shrugs. So it's going to change beside him, and I hope he catches up. When told I would need help, when I was asking for help during the planning for the recovery stage, he asked why, I said I won't be able to lift more than 10 lbs for 3 months. I cant very well set up POSH displays, and vendor events with a weight restrictions. His comment, Posh might need to take a step back.
Have a lovely day. I have to do two or three weeks worth of laundry, now that the college students went back to school and my washer is free.