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There Are No Hills Without Valleys

Friday, January 05, 2018

There are No Hills Without Valleys.

I’ll start this blog with an apology as it only seems fit to say “I’m sorry” for not being around lately. I haven’t had much time for writing, let alone keeping up with my social media obligations. However, I need to say “I’m sorry” to myself as well because in neglecting my writing, I’ve also neglected myself.

Sharing my blogs and additional weight loss information has been a source of strength and motivation for me. While it makes me happy to help others, it also helps me stay accountable and on track with my goals. It keeps me honest.

The last few months have been challenging for me for multiple reasons. My job has become very demanding and I’m working long hours. I feel tired and drained at the end of the day. As an emotional eater - I tend to use food as a way to cope with stress. While I exercise, when I’m under significant stress, I still pacify anxiety with food from time to time. The higher the stressor the more apt I am to eat. Lately, my stress level has been higher than it has been in years.

In addition, I’ve not been feeling well. Over the last 8-10 months, I have been experiencing lower back pain that has been progressively getting worse. It’s gotten so bad that there have been mornings where I couldn’t even bend down to tie my shoes so I could get to the gym.

Even with the pain, I tried to stay on track with my fitness goals. I would go to the gym when I felt up to it, and stayed in bed when I couldn’t move. It was so debilitating in the fall that I had to drop the boot camp class that I was so excited to participate in. My primary thought it was either the aging process or that I hurt myself in class, but I had a funny feeling it was more.

It turns out that I have a condition called Adenomyosis, which is similar to endometriosis. Here’s a link to the Mayo Clinics definition if interested: https://www.mayoclinic.org/dis
eases-conditions/adenomyos
is/symptoms-causes/syc-20369138 It’s often misdiagnosed, which was somewhat reassuring. It is not a serious condition, but it can be extremely painful, which was incredibly validating.

I got completely off track. Weeks went by when I stopped logging my food. I would exercise and then rationalize additional calories because I burned so many off. I lied to myself and didn’t pay attention to what I was eating - and then the holidays hit.

I finally stepped on the scale earlier this week and was amazed that I didn’t gain more than I did. However, it was a wake-up call. I realized a few things:

1. Nothing is more important than taking care of me. I need to keep that perspective so I carve out time for the things that are important in life.

2. I need to find healthier ways to cope with my stress besides food and exercise. I’m going to start writing again and reconnecting with friends and picking up a few hobbies. I need more time for me.

3. It’s OK for me to slow down when I don’t feel well. It’s not the end of the world if I miss a day at the gym. Sometimes relaxing is just as important as moving.

4. It’s time to be kinder to myself - I’m so good to others, but so hard on me. I need to work on that.

5. We can’t have hills without valleys - this is part of life and part of my journey. This won’t be the last time I struggle, the sooner I learn that, the sooner I can catch myself and get back on track.

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  • ANNIESADVENTURE
    So true, helping others helps us. It's motivating and helps keep us on track. Sometime the encouragement I give others encourages me.
    So many good things in the five points you listed at the end of your blog. It all starts with taking care of ourselves first.
    1189 days ago
  • CHUNKYMONKEY570
    Very inspiring blog! I have been doing this spark for a year falling off the wagon at times.These past two weeks have been great and hoping to continue.Great blog!
    1224 days ago
  • 1958TMC
    It's so nice to see you blog again. We can get off track so easily, but we are human. Just take one day at a time, we're here for support....always!!!!
    1294 days ago
  • CRADLEY
    I'm glad you were able to find out what was going on with your back. Not knowing what is going on but knowing that your body is not feeling OK is very frustrating.

    I know you can do it!! Stay Strong!!
    1296 days ago
  • OSHEONA
    I'm glad you were able to go to the doctor! One thing that might help with the back pain would be a posture bra. And you could also wear a back brace. They would really help, because they'd help you redistribute the load a little, so that it's easier to carry. I hope that you feel better soon! You didn't say whether or not you're anemic. I have to take iron and Vitamin C every day, because I am.
    1296 days ago
  • GOLFGMA
    Glad you are turning things around with knowing what the problem was . Wishing you a great journey in 2018!
    1297 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    So glad you have a diagnoses. It is hard when you don't know what is happening to your body.
    Here's hoping 2018 will be a much better year!
    1298 days ago
  • NOCALORIES
    You write well. Please come back and write more.
    1298 days ago
  • CHYNAB67
    Glad to see you back
    1298 days ago
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