Day one - by the hair of my chinny chin chin
Friday, January 05, 2018
Wow, guys and gals. It's only 6:2o pm ... and Day One has been ... um... educational.
It's been a long time since TRACKING was a bellwether, a comrade, a safety net. How I apparently need that! Wow. It really does help... to real in compulsion and "I WANT what I want... not later...now". Ha.
No time like TODAY. I almost said "wtf" ... to open the gates on some evening noshing...
and then I realized ... if not now...when?
It does not serve me to spill tears or uh-oh on the loss/absence of well honed Spark habits. They will come back. They will. One day at a time. F. S.
As hard as it is today.... I feel RELIEVED to have a boundary... and a frame of reference.
I need it. I need here. I need connection.
IF I always come back to reigning in my food behavior.... can I still make progress on the other fronts? I think there's only one way. Through. Can't do one with out the other.
Perfectionism? Yep. Still painfully holding me back. All or nothing thinking? Yep. Still holding me back. FEAR of .... yep, still holding me back. Tendecy to Isolate? Yep... That too.
Bring it on 2018.
I'm not powerless. I have the tiller. Bring on the WINDS of CHANGE