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Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Recently JEANKNEE made a comment on a blog that has just kind of sat on my brain and won't leave. I wrote that once again I'm losing weight; that I've done it before and can do it again. She responded something about weeding. I just keep weeding, but don't get the root. Don't get to the root of my food issues. I suspect that is true. But I wonder if the root grows around my heart, by my liver/kidneys/lungs, and throughout my brain?!? Maybe whatever the issue/issues are I cannot excise it/them without injuring me. My food problems started before I was a year old when weighing 31 pounds the doctor put me on skim milk. Maybe it is just a part of me I need to accept and work with. Or maybe that is an excuse. Who would I be without food issues? Hmmm. Or maybe if I really were as analytical as JEANKNEE is (or as I am capable of being) I could find that root and I could get rid of it. I'm not sure.

So I know for now I'm going to keep on weeding. This morn I weighed 130.6. I expect to have my middle 2 (120-129.9) back soon. While I'm weeding, though, I'll be on the lookout for that root!
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    Thanks for this!! I needed the reminder to get those roots. Here's to a great 2018 for us all!
    662 days ago
    Oh, Marsha. I just want to give you a big hug ... emoticon

    My food issues were evident at birth, for me, too. My mother was unable to breast feed. My little body was starving for food. What I was being fed was making me ill ... really ill! Cow's milk almost killed me. The doctor's struggled to find a food my body would accept. Eventually, something was found. Thank you goats!

    I continue to weed too. It has been a lifelong affair. I've gone at the roots of different issues as they enter my awareness. I spent the better part of my 30's weeding the roots of many painful psychological issues. Have I rooted out all of them? I HIGHLY doubt it!

    Weight issues have always accompanied my food issues. And, for me, those weight issues have gone to both extremes ... struggling to retain weight to obesity.

    Good thing I enjoy gardening!

    So, I remain vigilant and continue tending to the garden of my soul. It seems to be my life's work. I am doing my best to find acceptance of myself and my imperfections while continuing to address them free of struggle. I find it to be a balancing act and I've had glimpses and experiences of that balance. It's sweet ...

    668 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/20/2017 3:11:30 PM
    Love the weeding idea. I am pulling weeds myself as I find myself at the top of my range. Cannot have that!
    668 days ago
    I'm weeding away right beside you . . .and for me, that recent insight from Jon Gabriel that my body will be fat as long as it wants to be fat, and that it wanted to be fat out of fear and for protection -- yeah: most definitely a "root" I didn't know about before.
    669 days ago
    I too think we all need to keep weeding.
    Even the lucky ones who didn't have to in younger years, have to start weeding some day.
    ; )
    Anyhow, you are doing wonderfully, having lost so many pounds and keeping them off for so long.
    669 days ago
    Well, as a life long gardner, I know of no weeding procedure that eliminates the need for weeding. Pull a weed out by the roots, fine, you've elimated that weed but not future weeds. Want a weed free garden? Keep weeding. It's called maintenance. And what gardner beats him/herself up about the need to maintain a garden by weeding it? That's life, not poor gardening.
    670 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/19/2017 10:37:56 AM
    I wish I were 130 lbs! It's been a while for me. Perhaps your metabolism has changed? Sometimes you need to eat less, and sometimes you need to eat more. What does your doctor say? I mean, about what the right weight should be for you.

    I can see why switching to skim milk at only one year old would be traumatic. I know that doctors used to recommend that, but it wasn't nice. You need a lot of vitamins and minerals at that age, and not getting any fat makes it impossible to get some of the vitamins, the fat-soluble vitamins. Do you take a multi-vitamin every day? If you do, be sure and eat it with a meal that contains the most fat to get all of the vitamins that you can. Well, you know what they say, "We can't change the past, only work on the present, to make the future better." I know, it's easier said than done. I think people are evolutionary wired to more easily remember bad things that have happened, and forget the good things. Try really hard to remember good experiences associated with food, and ways in which your parents cared for you. Maybe that would help.
    670 days ago
    Very thought provoking. Is there a root? As in taproot? I’m not sure. Sometimes I think back to when I was sick in the first grade and was on bed rest for a month or so and when I was ready to go back to school my clothes didn’t fit anymore. But I know it’s more than that. I know with my own 3 children I knew which one would have a problem with weight. With my 3 grandchildren we all know which one is destined for problems. Genetic, Physical, psychological, hormonal, situational- it all becomes muddled. The weeding is useful and instructive, but I think techniques and plans act like a weed mat- they’re down there, but they can’t get through. It’s a constant struggle for me.
    670 days ago
    Great analogy. Like maintenance, weeding is an ongoing process. We remove the 3-foot weeds, only to find that there were 2-foot weeds lurking underneath. We remove them and find the one-footers. It takes quite a while to get to the point where we're weeding with tweezers!
    670 days ago
  • DIROB57
    Sounds like you are on your way to having a beautiful 'garden'! And I'm glad WW is working so well for you!

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    670 days ago
    I think for most of us food issues are taught to us by our parents, either because they were food insecure themselves or had distorted ideas of healthy eating. It certainly wasn't your fault that you got to 31 pounds in your first year - someone had to have helped you. You are doing great - and you've written an inspiring post that has me thinking too!
    670 days ago
    What brilliant thought (from you & Jeannie) It's just like any other addiction (and yes, we can be addicted to food!), it's getting to the root of how we look @ food. And don't worry, you're not alone! I have to do the same thing.

    In the meantie, I'll keep weeding, too!
    670 days ago
    Great blog! Sometimes I think that you have to be very vigilant in some areas of your life. Perhaps weight maintenance is your area. Who knows?
    670 days ago
    Good thinking! Those roots! May your weeding clear that garden! emoticon
    670 days ago
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