Well here I go again, is what some might say.
I am saying YES, here I go again because I am worth it I know I can do it, I've done it before so what kept holding me back? I am the type of person that I always put others first. Ok, that's not a bad quality but you can allow it to do damage to yourself. There comes a time when you have to put yourself first. I always felt like I was being selfish if I did. Well the closer I get to the Lord, I see that I have to take care of me or I can't help others. I know this & figured this out a while back so why didn't I stick to it?
I met a lady, right here in my hometown that has some of the same issues I have. She has been to the dr. been put on one medication after another & she was still pretty much were I was. So from one extreme to the other (NO Doctors for me) & (every Doctor she could see) for her, why are we not getting the help we need? She introduced me to a natural supplement & since I started taking it for the first time in my life I feel like a totally different person. I have become the person I always felt I was inside. My sister & many others have told me that I have adult ADHD, well I guess they were right. I use to kid around & say well I've dealt with it this long, I'll be fine. (knowing something was really wrong) Since starting this, I can actually focus & get things accomplished. I'm finally finishing everything I put my hands on! So now it's time to finish MY weight loss journey.
I NO longer have a love hate relationship with the
I really tell myself it doesn't matter what it says. I know I'm doing great & I don't need proof from the scale. I have lost pounds but more important I have lost inches
Yes ALL that is very nice but I have lost depression, I have lost the feeling like I just don't matter. I am fixing myself from the inside out!! I always thought if I lost the weight & got healthy I would be happy. Boy was I wrong. I am writing this because I looked back at my journey here on spark. Yes I was happier, yes I was losing weight but now I look back at the pictures & I can still see the sadness. I am fixing my blood chemistry, which is leveling off everything from the inside. I was the girl that got "fat" from NOT eating. I never got enough calories & when I ate, I always went after the wrong stuff. Now I'm the girl that craves water, healthy food & yes I still treat myself but it's truly a treat not a everyday indulge. I was eating and not enjoying it. I was eating because I knew I had to eat something. Now I eat because I want to fuel my body to be able to function & do the things I need to do.
I have finally learned to say NO, & guess what the WORLD didn't end!
Yes I've made a few mad, upset a few but I can not let that bother me. I have always took things very personal, well I can not live MY LIFE effectively by worrying about others. We are all grown, we all have the same amount of hours in our day & if I don't have time to take care of myself & my house, then everything else will have to wait. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very active in the church, my community, my daughters school & in both of my home businesses but I'm FINALLY putting everything in the correct order as God intended.