Update on the chaos of my life
Thursday, November 02, 2017
Hey everyone! The scale is moving in the wrong direction but things are getting better for me mentally and emotionally.
Before, I felt like I was drowning. There were so many things in my life I felt needed my attention but I didn't know where to start. So I decided to start with finding someone to help me. In September, I found a new therapist and she's wonderful. I told her my goal was to basically maintain. That I didn't have any crises at the moment but I need help accomplishing my goals. I'm working two jobs and have a pretty busy social life and I exercise every day. She helped me prioritize and get organized. I decided my health journey was my top priority, then my family and friends and finally my second job as I don't need to work it all the time. It was just nice having that extra money.
Honestly just saying that out-loud really gave me a sense of purpose and has helped me organize my own thoughts. Before I would go home after work and just become immobilized with everything I felt I needed to do. Often I would end up do nothing because I felt so overwhelmed. It made me feel depressed because managing my life felt like an impossible task.
I'm looking forward to the holidays this year because last year I was so sad from my break-up. It's nice to be getting over that more every day.
My foot continues to heal. I still struggle going downstairs but I can do Zumba pretty comfortably again and go for a long walk without swelling. Speaking of Zumba, I started doing that hardcore again. Sometimes my knees ache but I just take a break and get back at it again. Another thing my therapist suggested for my health journey was taking one thing at a time. We decided I should first focus on establishing an exercise routine. She said forming new habits takes a lot of mental capacity but once it's routine, it frees up space to start something else.
I don't know what I will add next. I'm waiting until a hard workout doesn't leave me exhausted for days. One thing I am going to do immediately is cut back my beer consumption. Waaahhhh. But I'm pretty sure it's holding me back from making any real progress.
I'm hopeful I can finally see the scale move in the right direction.