The Beck Diet Solution, Day 33, 11 2 2017
Thursday, November 02, 2017
Eliminate Emotional Eating
This one is all about me. I have read the chapter several times over the last two years and every time I get something new from it.
I am usually an upbeat joyful person and I did not consider myself an emotional eater. I clearly remember the first time I read the chapter and I realized I eat if I am bored or restless or lonely. Dealing with that helped me to lose a lot of unwanted weight. And the way I dealt with it was to turn off the television, take up several activities that used to give me pleasure before I became so consumed by my career that I had no steam left over at night for anything but ice cream.
What I did not do after any of the past readings was to use the Mindset Techniques. I have not yet learned to name my feelings as I am feeling them or to stand firm. I tend to skip right to problem solving. Standing firm and no choice sound like “will power” and I am only marginal at it.
But that other technique…imagine the aftermath of giving in…sounds like it would be an interesting skill to acquire. At the moment, I am in the Beck trek zone and I am not experiencing cravings. But I don’t ever remember thinking about consequences of overeating before I actually took an unplanned bite. Not really. All I see and imagine is the delicious and vivid image of the food itself calling to me. Of course, like a remorseful drunk the day after a binge I have had lots of experience to pull from after a night of unplanned eating. The regret. The bloat. The heartburn. The disturbed sleep. The weight gain in the morning. The loss of the momentum I worked hard to achieve doing a trek. The hopeless feeling. The empty resolve to swear off. And the lies I tell myself. “Just this once.” “I will only have one little scoop.” “I can make up for it tomorrow.” “Frankly Scarlet I don’t give a d**n.” The message to my subconscious about how unimportant my health and wellbeing really are. The message to my husband about how little self-respect I really have. The message to a wider circle that I am subject to the discrimination heaped on over-weight people. Oh and not to forget the knee pain I experience from carrying extra weight. Or the way extra pounds age my body.
I just thought after writing up this image of giving in to eating unplanned food that some of it is my advantages list in reverse.
Have you ever heard the old joke. What do you get when you play a country music song backwards?
You get your job back. You get your house back. You get your car back. You get your dog back. You get your wife back.
What do I get when I play my Advantages list in reverse? A whole lot of misery.