Do you know Fibromyalgia?

So I am contemplating, why I can not accept my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia. Probably because, you can't take an x-ray or blood test, or MRI that shows it. And secondly every day is different for me. Even the morning can start out good, but by dinner i feel like crap. I use to always say "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired!" Way before my diagnosis in 2016. So I don't really compare my life to anyone else, just the woman I use to be! I grieve for her! Sure, she was overweight, but not like I am today. I need to lose 40 pounds just to get back down to where I was. But she could work. She at one point walked 3 miles and quit smoking! So I have to learn things differently. For me, trusting, what the Physicans recommend is very difficult. And asking my boyfriend for help( when he already works his butt off) is extremely difficult! People need more awareness! Honestly, I never knew about Fibromyalgia, until a few commercials for Lyrica on TV.. and that day the pain specialist started poking at the "trigger points"... I knew! I am still struggling with the disbelief of it. But folks let me tell you something, the pain is real! Most of the time my pain is the same, however different factors can make me cry and cringe with unbearable pain. The cold weather ( yeah because we just moved to Tennessee) stress, lack of sleep, because you are in pain... Depression has been a big factor all my life, but pain stops you in your tracks!!! No matter how strong you think you are ( I consider myself very strong willed) it will take you down! I use to not think I was THAT sick, but I have days where I can barely cook dinner or wash the dishes. As those are 2 things I insist I do on a daily basis! But I have my days and I see I have to learn something new. I have unclutter my mind and reach out for help. Thank you for reading. I appreciate you stopping by. I am trying my best to learn to share, so people are aware. Because I wasn't!