I’m a HSP, too. I’ve read your BLOG entry. People sometimes refer to it as ‘drama queen’, was my experience in younger years. I don’t think so. Many are judging while lacking empathy. I know why I am HSP. Part of it is epigenetic and a part of it is experience. Our brain remembers even before we became aware of ourselves. Negativity stays there in form of ‘scars’. We also develop a higher sensitivity, perhaps a higher intuition than others. Some of us have a higher miral ground than others. I wouldn’t like to be a different person. Everything in the universe is right just the way it is, I believe. It’s just that keeping me balanced can be exhausting, and then I compensate with food. It’s a constant battle, everything is transient, and I actually look forward what’s next. There is no perfection, there is just progress, and the way is the goal. Hope everything is good on your end, Andrea. Sending greetings.
I hear you. I'm a HSP too - it's hard. When I first started with my therapist, she said, "OH you are one of those people who notices everything..." so she is careful to let me know if she's running late etc because early on, I thought it was something I had done...it can be exhausting to have all the feels. I also recognized my sensitivity to light and noise. It has helped me using ear plugs to sleep and a sound machine. Thanks for sharing with us. And thinking of you. 1212 days ago
It must be a constant battle, and very wearing to live life like this, I can feel the energy that is expended worrying and contemplating. Know that you are loved and admired by those around you, and if you ever come to England, you have a ready made friend here, ready to talk and listen over a nice cup of tea! X 1234 days ago
I am so glad you do have a support person. Your blog reminded me of a piece called Bits and Pieces that also talked about how all relationships eventually end but that we each carry a piece of the other. I guess it struck a cord because my oldest brother has terminal cancer and is in hospice. It is not by his choosing that he is leaving although he is accepting of his reality. It is so hard to let go.
I pray that you are able to celebrate the bits and pieces of those who have touched your life. It sounds like you are a compassionate person as a result. 1234 days ago
This was a gorgeous, emotionally raw read. I understand that need to connect. You are right. So many people Don't want to connect on more than a superficial level. Or they don't understand how to do it. Or their walls are so high, the cost-benefit analysis doesn't end well for true intimacy. Your friends who read you so well are a true gift and I'm certain you give at least as much back to those relationships as you receive. Those who can't measure up to your level of openness have their own journeys to forge. (How judgmental is this, but those folks seem analogous to the citizens of Pleasantville, living in their bland world). I cant throw stones because it's instinct for me to be reserved...socially awkward as I am.