Monday, October 16, 2017
So I have been stuck at 200 for a while now, and for the past month and a half I kept playing with the same 5 or 6 pounds, up and down. Irritating. I went to 206, now I'm back to 200. I don't know what the scale will tell me on Tuesday, but my expectation is either no change or a pound down.
If I do see 199, I should be ecstatic because I haven't seen that number in yeaaarrs but of course I really want to see more than one pound down. I was starting to feel like I'd never get past 200, ever, so maybe I should just make sure I rejoice regardless, if it moves anywhere (even a half a pound away) from that number!!!
I am, however, seriously sick of seeing the same silhouette in the mirror. I keep moving things around like so much pizza dough (HA!) just to get some idea of what something else (anything else!) might look like. I got a haircut that I love, it feels very me, but once I get past the neckline I am like, "and that is *not* me." Just - tired of seeing it. And I know that even if I do everything perfectly from here out, the flop is not going to fly off my body, so I guess I just have to suck it up. And in.