Introduction to my Weight Loss Journey
Sunday, October 08, 2017
225 pounds... the highest my weight has ever been in my life. I stepped on the scale, read the number, and felt the wind be knocked from my chest.
Three years ago I watched my weight go up and began working out and had to stop when I had hip surgery.
Two years ago I watched the scale jump from 160 to 180 and vowed to change when a woman asked my new boyfriend and I when our baby was due...but I was in a new relationship so I was "allowed" to eat out on dates.
Then last year I watched the scale jump from 180 to 211. Again, I vowed to change. I began working out and watching what I ate and got back down to 198... and then I hurt my knee so I stopped working out.
This year I went to Florida for a week and didn't care what I ate or drank because it was vacation and when I got home the scale had moved once again.
I know these all sound like excuses...and they are. I know I need to take responsibility for my actions. I look in the mirror now and I am disgusted in what I see. I have always been chubby and it just seems to be getting worse and worse.
My brother is getting married in 8 months and I want to look my best when I stand as a bridesmaid. That isn't the only reason for my need to change though. I have a bad back and hips and the extra weight only worsens the problem.
I am hoping that by creating this blog I can hold myself accountable for the food I put in my body and that amount of exercise I perform.
My goals include losing 80 pounds in the next year by watching what I eat and doing what exercises I can. I think forward to the future, and I want to feel beautiful when I walk down the aisle someday. I want to be able to strengthen my back so that I will be able to carry and play with my future children. I am predisposed to diabetes and don't want to become a diabetic.
I am not good at getting these things out because it is uncomfortable for me to discuss. I am so self conscious about myself and am nervous to post this. If you are still reading, thank you. I hope you all stay tuned for future updates.
I start my change tomorrow. I have breakfasts and lunches planned for the week and am unsure what I will do for dinner.
2 hard boiled eggs
1/2 cups grapes
1 turkey sausage patty
Chicken noodle soup
Sugar pod peas
Weight watchers cheese stick
sugar free jell-o
Sugar free pudding
If you have any encouragement or tips, I'd love to hear them and I'll try to do the same.
Goodnight for now :)