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thursday--a bittersweet day

Thursday, September 21, 2017

good morning! yesterday I spent some time with my friend, Kathy, and made a new friend in the form of Kathy's friend, Darlene. Darlene is not a potter, but she spent many years working with clay as a production former and decorator of slab pieces that were made into refrig. magnets sold through a drugstore chain in California. she also learned china painting and painted and sold decorated porcelain slips. earlier this year she GAVE me 500 pounds of boxed clay that I can reclaim, and yesterday she brought me a trug full of kiln posts. I had thrown 3 bowls from the first clay she gave me and she chose one of them as "payback". I have to glaze it for her now. she also said she has some glazes or china paints and some witness cones I can have--so she was very generous and it was great to talk "clay" with this new friend. we went to lunch at our nearby café, and the chef salad worked for my low carb guidelines--without the croutons of course.
then it was time for the underwater treadmill. I had cut dorijanes visits from twice a week to once--over the last several months getting her loaded into the car was becoming more challenging. I have finally determined that she is just sick and tired of going. yesterday she was very active when Kathy and Darlene were here, and later even played with ralphie--something I don't see as much now. but when it came time to get in the car, she clearly didn't want to go. and she didn't want to go into the clinic when we got there. lately we have been taking her, along with ralphie and shambles to the park once a week, and she loves doing that--no problem getting in the car at all. so this isn't some kind of pain issue--she just doesn't want to do it anymore. and the overall scenario of loading her was beginning to make me frustrated and I do NOT want to loose my patience with her. so I talked to tandy, the vet tech and we agreed that for now at least, to stop the treadmill visits and add a second day of walking at the park. this is a bittersweet thing for me. on the one hand, it just simplifies my life a little and gives me a big chunk of time spent driving in the car back to concentrate on other things. but on the other, it marks the closing of a door in this chapter of her life. as she approaches 14 years of age, I know that our time with her is growing shorter. and letting go of this affirmative practice that has helped her so much is difficult. tandy felt that a walk twice a week will help just as much with keeping her moving and as active as she can be. and I know she much prefers going to the park in the company of ralphie and shambles to going by herself to the treadmill. but after nearly two years of working with the treadmill, the change is a big one. and we will miss tandy terribly. I have grown to like and respect her so very much, I will miss seeing her each week. she spoke of friending on facebook, and I did a friend request this morning, so we can stay in touch. she recently lost her beloved "rain" a Labrador retriever, and I want to see her new puppy when she gets him (she is on a wait list with a new breeder).
so I have a lot of mixed feelings this morning--and it will take a little while for it all to settle out.
good run yesterday--added in the next to last parking lot and had no troubles. I used a music mix with a slightly higher beats/per/minute and that was fine. I have an ipod shuffle that I am in a love/hate relationship with. when we got our new computer I suddenly couldn't figure out how to add/change the music stored on it, so I have been just using the music that was already on it. a request to rob to help me figure out why I can't add music to it led to an evening of deep frustration for him, and no resolution to the problem. it is (for him) a highly clumsy and non-intuitive device and as a software engineer known for his elegant simplicity, he was fit to be tied before he finally just gave up. I know he will eventually figure out the answer, but I feel bad that I threw this mess into his lap when he has enough messes to deal with already at work.
ah well--life goes on. have a great Thursday!
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  • JANET552
    It is hard to see the effects of aging but I'm glad you are listening to Dorijane. I cut Charlie's walks to just around the block and, now that someone else is walking the dogs, I don't even make him do that. It's sad to be reminded our time together is coming to an end but I, like you, want the days to be filled with happiness and contentment.
    396 days ago
  • LDYHAZ
    Oh boy do I know those transitions with an older dog. The walks in the park with you in my mind beats the treadmill anyday. Enjoy each other. I am so very glad she has you as her person. What a blessed Life and Love.
    397 days ago
  • RO2BENT
    Every day above ground is a good day
    397 days ago
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