In the depths....,
Thursday, August 31, 2017
I am caught up in the depths of a horrible depression. I went through a tremendous binge last week. I have gained 2 pounds back of the 9 pounds I have lost in the past couple months. I feel bloated and embarrassed about my excess weight. I weigh 212 pounds. My goal was to get below 200 by September but I destroyed all chances of that happening. I am just so tired of fighting. Utterly defeated. But yet I know that I have to keep trying because if I don't I could get up to 300 pounds. I feel trapped. Darned if I do, darned if I don't. I feel so uncomfortable about myself I am even embarrassed to go to the gym. Every time I go I get stared at. The gym I go to has mostly people that are fit. Very few fat people there. I am going to see my doctor today to enquire about weight loss surgery.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.