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Tuesday, August 08, 2017

I haven't logged on to SparkPeople in days.

I've been avoiding this look in the mirror.

I've let down my 5% Spark team and myself.

No more.

I'm done with it. The unhealthy eating: cookies on the couch at 10:00 at night, eating random snacks because I think I'm a lost cause. The sadness that I can't control my own life. The hopelessness. I'm done. No more of that.

Eat healthy. Log in. Exercise. Log in. Take time to meditate. Log in.

Because I can't do this if I'm alone. I need my Sparkers.
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  • DIANE7786
    emoticon You're not a lost cause! We are here to help you find your beautiful rainbow!
    585 days ago
    I've fallen into an unhealthy hole for many months now so i know what you have been going though. You have accomplished so much and when things have been tough you always keep roaring back with a plan that works. You can do this and getting back on SparkPeople is one of the first steps. Forget about what was and think about what will be. Full steam ahead!

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    585 days ago
    Feeling like you're letting others down is worse than anything. I have a hard time keeping up with challenges in general. I bet this happens a lot. Your teamates understand .
    587 days ago
  • CAROL_31649731
    Rebecca. you are NOT alone ... and you can do this! Yes, you need your Sparkers, and if you need your 5% teammates, we're still here and waiting for you. Don't give up. See you in the kitchen, Champion!
    587 days ago
    I find the same thing. If I don't keep logging in to Spark, I let myself and all my good intentions go. I don't understand it, but I am glad you are back.
    Sorry you are so depressed in SUMMER. The sun is supposed to make us feel better and have more energy. I know, me, too. But it's time to throw out those old tapes. We ARE worthy. We DO matter. I don't care what the mirror says today. This is your life and there are people who care about you. Please make this the day you start the best part of your life. Hugs.
    588 days ago
    Dang it, Rebecca, I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm glad you know we are here for you!!!
    588 days ago
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