Wow. It's been three weeks since I blogged. About that long since I did any concerted exercise. I've been "mini-binging" and pretty much eating whatever for several weeks. It's been 6 months since I lost any weight. In fact, I have re-gained 9 pounds. My ankles are swollen. I've been having trouble sleeping. My left ankle just started hurting and so does my back.
The only reason ANY of those things have happened is because I CHOSE IT. No idea why. Why? Why the hell would I choose that?
But I'm tired of trying to figure out why. It doesn't really matter anyway. I have proven that I can LIVE AROUND IT. I can make better choices that lead to better outcomes. And I can sustain that lifestyle for several months.
I've PROVEN that I can do that. Today, I proved that I can make more HEALTHY choices than not. So tomorrow I'm going to do the same. And I know the next tomorrow will be easier.
I have been VERY BUSY in life. Let me see if I can catch everyone up:
KIDS/GRANDKIDS -Finally heard from my daughter after almost a year. She said they were doing great which was a relief. Then a week later, she called to ask for money because her husband (ugh) supposedly missed 4 days of work due to heat stroke. They said they had NOTHING to eat and wanted me to send money. NOPE. I bought groceries online. Her birthday was yesterday. She said the husband had been back to work, but "he's not working this weekend so he can spend my birthday with me." He bought her a new wedding ring for her birthday. WTH. I constantly have to remind myself that she lived most of her life in a state of trauma before she became my daughter. So yes, her brain development was severely affected....but it's still hard because of my beautiful grandbabies.
My oldest son's wife is dealing with anxiety, but seeking help so that's good. Maeva is doing fine - just going through a stubborn phase a little early (not turning 2 until December).
Looking forward to getting to see them in Germany over Christmas.
My younger son is good. We recently had dinner together and we always start talking music and end up singing.
HUSBAND -Absolutely wonderful. I'm so blessed.
FATHER - Found out today his treatment for liver cancer is not working. They are calling in hospice. Can't say anything else about that right now.
JOB - LOVE IT. But the travel has been pretty brutal. I have a 6 week stretch where I'm gone every week. But it won't always be like that and I love training new workers. I have struggled with getting into a healthy routine in the hotel, but I'm not giving up. I know I can do this.
MUSIC - Going nuts! My solo shows have been going really well, and folks in our town are talking about me! I've started a Facebook page if you want to take a look and give me a LIKE.
The two bands I'm in - MIMIC and SECOND HELPING - are keeping me really busy! I'm in Pittsburgh for a show this weekend and then outside Atlanta next weekend. Absolutely loving it!
So - like I always say, "I'll sleep when I die." LOL. Today's goals were to prevent binging. Check. Have a healthy dinner. Check. Get back on Sparkpeople. Check. Do 15 minutes of yoga tonight. Will do that in just a minute. Tomorrow is to get up and do the treadmill before work, pack my lunch and snacks (Yes, you CAN do that from a hotel room!), eat a healthy dinner, practice music and do some more yoga before bed.
Hope you all are doing great and I look forward to getting caught up!
I GOT THIS.