Progress & Life Update and Venting
Saturday, August 05, 2017
Since my last entry on June 27, things have been pretty chaotic. We were busy looking for a place to live, and after a whirlwind of viewings and wild goose chases with letting agents, we signed the lease to a city centre apartment on my birthday. It was a really exciting day!
But since then, everything that has been able to go wrong HAS gone wrong. It's been an endless stream of stupid garbage, leading to overflowing stress, anxiety, frustration, emotional eating during countless days of ordering takeaway, and Jon and I snapping at each other almost nonstop.
I've barely been present in the 5% challenge due to the stress and to not having a computer here. I've been relying on Jon's work laptop to be free so I could hop on SparkPeople for a couple minutes a day.
A few days ago we finally brought my pc to the new flat, and I found out I'd left the power cord behind!! Major ugh. But I was able to go buy a power cord yesterday, so now everything's up and running and I can properly use SP again. But can I redeem myself by the end of the summer 5% challenge?
I'm really not sure if I can. Some days have been a complete setback, and most days I just haven't given it my all. Overall, I've gained instead of lost. I haven't done any proper ST or cardio, only walking. I've struggled to post my numbers before midnight and have been putting in only the bare minimum. I've barely chatted. I haven't been kind to myself whatsoever.
Simply put, I've let me and my team down.
I feel so discouraged and I don't know what to do.
Perhaps I'll feel better tomorrow. I should spend some time browsing SP again to put a little oomph in my ever-sagging motivation. I can't give up now... I just *can't*.