Mind if I vent?
Thursday, July 20, 2017
It's been a week. My momentum has diminished to almost nothing. My parents are on vacation so I am watching their 2 dogs. Both are older and take various medications, which is fine but one of them hasn't eaten in a week. I'm used to her not eating for a day or two whenever she comes here, she's a prissy little thing. But by Tuesday afternoon, I called the vet. She's on a special diet so I can't feed her regular dog food so I didn't know what to do. We chatted and I tried their recommendation which didn't work. This morning she was lethargic and tail between her legs, breathing fast and still not eating. I called again and took her in. After blood test, chest film and urine sample, turns out she had a uti. My parents won't like the vet bill, but their dog will be well when they get home. 😱😜
On top of that mess, I have been sick most of the week. Vomiting and the runs. Sorry, tmi, I know. So basically, between a sick dog and a sick me, I haven't done anything right. I ate pizza. Something I said I was not doing anymore. I drank a sprite - trying to settle my stomach- which didn't help too much. Exercise? Nope. Desire to eat right and exercise? Yea. Sure.
I'm making soup tonight. It's a tad warm outside but soup sounds great to me! I may attempt to go out and walk this evening or put in a Leslie Sansone video and work out that way. But then again, I might not do anything lol
I need to get my head back. I just restarted on SparkPeople and was doing great. Seems like 1 thing can throw me off and i stop doing what I need to do. Why? What can't I just do what I need to do? Why is this always the way it is? It's been a lifetime of: next year I will wear a bathing suit and go to the beach. Next year I will buy a cute dress. Next year I will finally be thin and try to get on a roller coaster. Next summer, next Christmas, next season... why is my life always "next?" Why can't I just do this once and for all? Why can't I be happy? Why can't I be comfortable in my own skin?