Wednesday, July 19, 2017
I'm not here as much as I'd like. I log my food (or some of it anyway) every day, and I read blogs, but I'm not present. I forget to post my things for the Rowdy Rebels before I pass out on the couch. I don't leave inspiring comments to help you all along on your journey.
The truth is, I'm failing at everything. I'm exhausted, physically and emotionally. The next 8 months are going to be so difficult for me. I'm just trying to survive the emotional rollercoaster I'm on. My marriage is no longer a relationship that is healthy for me. It causes me undue stress. I'm stuck in limbo right now, and right now I'm just taking it day to day. My eating is suffering. I'll have a perfect day, then I'll have two or three days where the emotions just eat me up and I lose all control.
I find myself really missing people I've met on here but no longer have contact with. If you're reading this (which I doubt but it never hurts to hope I guess), you know who you are and I miss you.
Anyway, to the rest of you, I haven't given up yet. I'm still a fighter. So please forgive me and be patient with me.