JULY 12: Mental Illness Is A Struggle
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
I have anxiety, depression, & PTSD. I was diagnosed in 2015. I take a daily antidepressant & anxiety medication when needed.
A myth about antidepressants is that most people think just because you are medicated, everything is okay. That couldn't be any further from the truth. You have good days & bad days.
I have days where I feel like the Energizer Bunny. I get up early, do my morning routine, push mow over a third of an acre, and clock almost 2 miles on my Fitbit, all before 12pm. I track all my meals, drink my water, & stay within my nutritional ranges.
Then I have days that are the complete opposite. I get thru my morning routine, don't even get out of my pajamas the entire day. Exercise? Not Interested. Eating? No Appetite, or if I do have one, eat all the junk.
The hard days can really bring you down where you do the bare minimum or even struggle to do that. I've had periods where my depression has affected me for multiple days, like right now. It feels like no matter what I try to do to get out of the dark hole, it doesn't help. There are days where I don't even have the energy, strength, or interest to get out of the hole.
The only thing to do is take it day by day. Even on hard days I still try to do these 3 things:
1. Minimum 64 ounces water
2. Track nutrition (yep even the junk food!)
3. 3 miles on my Fitbit (I will walk laps around my house)
Now, on rough days I may not always hit all three. I try to keep the thought in the back of my head, "You may not feel like you have much control right now and that's ok. But you can control what you eat & drink, and if you get up and do some sort of movement".