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Fatigue Intrigue

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

I have been an absolute mess lately. Most days, I can't think, I can't function, I feel like I'm sleeping awake. I can't read or write often, and I am useless at work. There are days when any email response longer than a "Thanks!" takes a Herculean effort on my part. I used to be really sharp, but now I feel like my brain is soft and mushy, and my mind is in a fog.

It's gotten really bad and frustrating, so I started out figuring I would just try different healthy behaviors to see if they would help. I started taking a multivitamin, then an additional Vitamin D. Multivitamin didn't do anything for me, but the Vitamin D helped a bit! I upped my target calories by a couple hundred calories, in case my deficit was too high, which should be okay, since I have been working out 5-6 days a week for awhile.

Then, it was pointed out to me that a doctor would be able to actually check for deficiencies, so I went to one a couple weeks ago. He told me he thought the Vitamin D helping was placebo effect. I don't really agree with him, but he's the doctor, and it doesn't matter if the Vitamin D is actually working or if I just think it works--the effect is the same.

My bloodwork didn't give him any insight into what could be wrong with me, so he upped the dosage of my SSRI and told me to come back in a month. I didn't think that would work, but he's the doctor, so I did.

About a week after that, there was no change, so I thought maybe I was oversleeping. Since I started feeling fatigued, I'd been trying to get more and more sleep to fix it, but maybe I don't need that much, so I reinstalled SleepBot and forced myself to stay up later, and I started feeling a little better.

A couple nights ago, I decided to maybe try meditation. I subscribe to Mindful magazine and have always been thinking to try it. I'll occasionally look at videos, check out the apps recommended by the magazine, find articles, but I very rarely ever attempted to sit down and DO it. On Monday evening, for the first time in a long while, I set a timer and meditated.

It was only 8 minutes, and I wasn't very focused. When I finished, I felt no different, which was actually a relief, since I feared I'd be even more tired.


Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I was productive! I got more done at work in one day than I did in the last two weeks. I felt NORMAL, I mean, I think I did. I kind of forgot what that feels like.

Last night, I sat for 9 minutes, and again, today I felt good! Two days in a row!

It could be any of these things--the vitamins, the nutrition, the sleep, the SSRI, the meditation, or a placebo of any or all of these. I mean, maybe I should have waited a month between each change. Lots of these things probably take time. It could also be nothing at all--I could wake up tomorrow feeling like my brain leaked out my ears. But I'm cautiously optimistic that I've really gotten over this hump, and I'm going to maintain all the changes, because it's a small price to pay for actually being a functioning member of society.
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    Hope you feel better now.
    888 days ago
    I hope you are feeling better and doing well.
    895 days ago
    "He's the doctor...." yada yada well you know, doctors can be hired and FIRED - so if you are documenting what you do and it does or does not make improvement (especially the things he wants you to do, if it does not make improvement...) then you know, you can go interview a few other doctors and see if any of them are more on your wavelength. In the end, we know more about our bodies than a doctor. A good doctor recognizes that s/he is a part of a TEAM, not lord and master over you.

    There's also such a thing as Functional Medicine - and those doctors DOOOO believe in the power of sleep, mediation, checking Vitamin D levels, that sort of thing... So that's something to check out, if you haven't already.

    And something I am wondering about, but I've been reading various functional medicine doctors online - seems like having he WIFI on all night and other forms of radio frequency energy can mess with our minds. But the meditation thing is probably a better thing to do for the things we can not control (like the wifi if the family members do not believe in it and want to keep it up all night long, etc.)...

    I'm curious about SleepBot but I will google or duckduckgo it later...... hee hee

    Take care!

    909 days ago
    I like a lot that you reflect upton what is happening with you, and try to sort it out.
    I find these are different steps:
    1. Figure out what's going on
    2. Find out how to solve it
    3. Implementing the action steps

    913 days ago
    I'm glad you are feeling better! emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Catchy title, by the way, very perfect! I'm glad that you got tested for any deficiencies. Did you get the lab results yet? Some people need more Vitamin D than others, so it probably really is helping you. Plus, they say the RDA is too low, that science's knowledge of Vitamin D's role in our health is just in its infancy.


    958 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
    glad you are feeling better...........
    for me it was mt thyroid did you have that checked?

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    958 days ago
    Glad you're feeling better.

    Did the doc check your thyroid function?
    959 days ago
    Sounds like one step @ a time is an option - regardless, glad you are feeling better!
    959 days ago
    I like the way you are a sleuth in your efforts to be proactive for your own health.
    Glad you are feeling better !
    Just a suggestion if you have not already tried this....increase water consumption and fiber consumption, especially water. That really helps me when I feel foggy brained.

    959 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/13/2017 7:42:51 AM
    Well done for looking into ways to help yourself. Glad you're doing better now! Should it return I think that you could try 'scoring' how tired you feel for a couple of weeks to get insights into what is helping and what is not.
    Re: meditation, it's always good to meditate. But as far as I know one needs to do it for a few weeks before it's clear if it helps for something like fatigue.

    959 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    Hope you get to 100% soon!
    959 days ago
    Fatigue is NO fun!
    959 days ago
    Glad you feel more together. Good for you being proactive on several fronts - maybe it's the combination of approaches. I hope you continue to see positive results.
    959 days ago
    I think if what you are doing is helping, keep it up! I'm glad you are finally feeling better.
    959 days ago
    Have you had a sleep test done? I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and my c pap has really helped!
    959 days ago
    I just glad you fell better.. whatever which one is the reason
    959 days ago
  • SPIRIT42017
    Sounds like my fibromyalgia, except you don't hurt all over like the flu. Or it could be a side-by-side of sleep apnea, but you didn't mention a sleep study. Meditation is good for all souls, especially worriers like me. Keep up the OM!
    960 days ago
    Thank you for sharing
    960 days ago
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